Friday, December 28, 2012

Don't allow even a second

A measure of perseverance
to let it off, gone for ever
Never let it disturb you
not even a slightest tap
not even a slightest hum
not even a second

that's you


walk through wood

It was silence  
as I walk through wood
audible only the breaking of leaves
and my own breath.

the realisation that I am alive
among the many lives and deaths
embodied within the plane
of Oneness.

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

remember what u say

and that's not to be displayed
not ever.
it is not much of an effort
to pull out from the bottom of heart
in it's burial place.

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Puisi buat Lienn

sudah pandai berbisik
merapat mulut kecil ke telinga
mengeluar bait-bait kecil
walau sukar dikait mencantum
ada sedikit imbas nakal
mengusik ummi
sambil memaut ayah.

Monday, December 24, 2012

feeling bad

not to be seen as nonchalant
i take all things within strides
as i glide
within the rugged terrain

It's not for me to complain
because I tune up for pragmatism
to attune and adapt

even under the darkest of sky


Sunday, December 23, 2012

Puisi untuk ummi

hanya lienn yang tahu

erti sabar pada kalbu ibu

bisik sama ibu, sama ummi
tangan lienn ada dua
sedia menghubung dua jiwa
yang sering berjarak.

Friday, December 21, 2012


I know
you are good at modifying
what's brought home not to your taste

Didn't you say about adding kicap
or tomato and chili sauce
to bring taste up and higher.

I hope by now
you know intan and jintan
and you know kunyit and kantan.

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

my media brother

so that's it
the quickest we ever seen
to tie knot
with a bless

and he will take it
along the strides


Tuesday, December 18, 2012

ombak pertama

Hingga langit pun tahu budi dalam hati
Harapan yang memuncak terlerai tak bertepi
Hakikat meletak mimpi terpisah dari realiti
Helaian yang meleret tinta terang dalam sepi.

Pada ombak yang  mengusik hati
Pada pasir yang mencatat detik-detik dalam sunyi
Pada camar yang memandang dari awan tinggi
Waktu lesu menanti turun mentari.

Monday, December 17, 2012

every word.

I remember every word
bridging all mood
binding all nerve

as the heart trembles
as mood sways
as feelings escalate

I bow at the edge of time
again as a sign of respect
no claps, just a bow.

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

air mata

Kau mengalir airmata
waktu berat di dada
waktu aku masih ada

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Puisi Ulangtahun Perkahwinan

siang yang datang mengajak malam
bergeseran antara lena dan leka
menilai erti hidup berkongsi ruang
sepanjang susah dan senang
antara riang gembira dan duka derita

Fajar menyinsing membuka tabir memori
meletak warna pada tabir rahsia yang usang
menyelak dalam kedukaan
tersingsing rasa senang gembira.

Monday, December 10, 2012

to my dear little one NLH (2)

a sunset, tanjung aru, sabah.

~Thomas Miller

The day is past, the sun is set,
And the white stars are in the sky;
While the long grass with dew is wet,
And through the air the bats now fly.
The lambs have now lain down to sleep,
The birds have long since sought their nests;
The air is still; and dark, and deep
On the hill side the old wood rests.
Yet of the dark I have no fear,
But feel as safe as when 'tis light;
For I know God is with me there,
And He will guard me through the night.
For God is by me when I pray,
And when I close mine eyes to sleep,
I know that He will with me stay,
And will all night watch by me keep.
For He who rules the stars and sea,
Who makes the grass and trees to grow.
Will look on a poor child like me,
When on my knees I to Him bow.
He holds all things in His right hand,
The rich, the poor, the great, the small;
When we sleep, or sit, or stand,
He is with us, for He loves us all.

Friday, December 07, 2012

Puisi anak kecil

semalam kau tidur nyenyak, lebih awal dari ayah
ummi memeluk erat seketika
sambil bercerita, bersambung-sambung.

ayah hanya mampu senyum
sebab ayah sudah dengar semalam
cerita yang sama diulang dengan sedikit variasi
namun kau masih teruja, ternanti.

Apa kau selesa tidur diapit begitu
ayah sebelah sini, ummi sebelah sana

Thursday, December 06, 2012

a slice

I whisper to her
I am not demanding for more
a slice will do

a fruit
a life
a love.

I will be contented forever.

Wednesday, December 05, 2012


if you happen to have a slightest
of anger and utmost hatred
don't ever to try to come
with knife and dagger

I will not fight back
I will sit still watching you
plunging and slashing

I will only say sorry
as the last blood drop
to the bottom of sanity
as hatred rose to the sky
and falls as honey and dew.


Tuesday, December 04, 2012

the veins

I was watching the garden
the morning was finest
the sky was bluest
the birds were sweetest

as sweet as the little one
as we walk to the edge of time
with flowers in hands
love in hearts

everything is in the veins
my dear.


Monday, December 03, 2012

to my dear little one, NLH (1)


~Christina Rossetti

Brown and furry
Caterpillar in a hurry,
Take your walk
To the shady leaf, or stalk,
Or what not,
Which may be the chosen spot.
No toad spy you,
Hovering bird of prey pass by you;
Spin and die,
To live again a butterfly.

Friday, November 30, 2012

bicara pengantin

it's never a marriage of two
it's in fact the story of two within many

as we conform to the demands and expectations
to live and behave
among the many.

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Genting Highland, not to be.

up yonder
a night to remember
cherished for ever,..

to the highlander
sad to say
it is not meant to be.

_______   dienn    ]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]

Wednesday, November 28, 2012


the new page
the line of thoughts

and you
turning it
to your will.

Tuesday, November 27, 2012


emotional overflow.
as it glows
over the spirit of  heart.

Monday, November 26, 2012

Eating too much of Quality salt.

There is nothing wrong with quality certification.  The whole thing is not designed to kill, but to put weight and trust. The first time we embarked on ISO certification was years ago, the days of Likas. It was more of a necessity than anything else as we set foot on joint venture with british company. They are looking for measurable standard, there we go on the journey of quality. It was less than a year!

But we had seen friends becoming slaves of quality master, pulling themselves deeper into the depth of procedures, whereas we had been quite clear earlier on, this quality bible is for us to handle the way we see best. We set on the core issue, about going for certain achievable targets, using quality as the platform.

While our friends are drown into the deepest depth, we are sailing alright, sieving the unnecessary  aside, maintaining the central issue, the company existence, what we believe in to stay!

Friday, November 23, 2012


a mystery, 
dream come true?' 
I am asking you

Thursday, November 22, 2012

What is a goodbye

There are times when we thought
There is a need to utter goodbye
But the outcome differs
To the way others perceiving it.

a sincere and honest gesture
may be construed otherwise
depending on the openness of hearts.

in the final analysis,
goodbye, a permanence.


Wednesday, November 21, 2012

dancing in the sky

a picture
a thousand words
a healer

Tuesday, November 20, 2012


I keep coming back to edge o'lake
to renew acquaintance with ripples and waves
as I sit and let it all out
to the vastness of water and sky

The flowers are sweeter, both colour and fragrance
The water is clearer to remain naked to the bottom of wisdom
The sky is bluer to put calmness and sooth worries
and I just sit thinking of you..

at the edge o'lake.


Monday, November 19, 2012

Didn't I tell you about QUALITY

We started early, too early
when competitors are still on the basics
of pure supply and demand
to handle challenges of market forces.

Over in Likas, as we mould our strategies
pushing parameters in all possibilities
as we venture to foreign field
as the need comes to put up our identity.

It's about laying out proper platform
for actions meeting objectives
for treating clients, customers and stakeholders
with utmost respect, confidentiality and fairness

It's about strategizing the roadmap
with clear target to achieve,
understanding feedback in its mechanics,

It's about supplier not to be let roaming free
for they too had too be accountable
what they had to deliver what had been agreed
and therefore they too, subject to scrutiny

Didn't I tell you about the review
that we love to get into
as we analyze every little maneuver
as we put everybody accountable

and we always believe on the whole journey
as a way to strengthen the quality
audited and endorsed!!

for anja
__________ dienn

Friday, November 16, 2012


You had it all
the strength and stamina
to take you far.

But I can only take back stage
to see, and view,
but I will be with you in most things.


Thursday, November 15, 2012

agrobased industries

It's lovely to see products emerging through the many hands and minds and every single product is barakah as each  had put their efforts and enthusiasm. We depend on one another.

Teluk Intan is small dear Anja.
Sandakan is far bigger.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Rohingya, a long journey.

World had seen it thousand times
when majority squeezed minority
when the stronger push the weaker

The red Indians were pushed to barren lands
The moros were deprived of freedom
The rohingyas will face the same fate

It's the way the earth evolves,
always at the same pace and precision
never a second missed

And down the road,
there will be deaths and sorrow
when human life rendered worthless

It's always about political battle
It's always about championing an issue
It's always about economic maneuver too.

My dear anja
Forget not about the afghans
Forget not about the Iraqis
and soon the Iranians will follow suit

The whole heartless game is about power
either political or economical
but would you believe it
politic is the slave of economy!

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

berdakapan di fajar hening

esuk atau lusa
harus awal dari terbit mentari
sebelum fajar muncul
sebelum habis embun hujung daun

untuk sesaat
berdakapan dalam sejuk pagi
mengajak mentari kembali
menerangi pagi..

Monday, November 12, 2012

A dream

A dream
for the future
a dream
into reality you prefer

a dream
to see the big world
a dream
to see crowd
charting the earth as diplomat.

a dream
to venture into legal practice
another stint for further studies.

Set the tone.
but you are no more alone
my dear, talk it over at home.

my dear, 
you future, 
your dream, 
your adventure.

wish you luck, my dear

Friday, November 09, 2012

puisi palma

terjuntai menyentuh kaki
aku tahu kau geli
aku rindu senyum mu.

--- dienn ---

Thursday, November 08, 2012

husband and wife, a friend, and a lover.

what is a husband and a wife.
what do they have.
what do they share.
what do they think of one another.
apa yang mereka rasa malu antara mereka.
adakah mereka kekuk berbincang
adakah mereka tahu keinginan pasangan.
adakah mereka berusaha memuaskan pasangan.
adakah mereka merasai kenikmatan hidup.
adakah mereka rasa bahagia.
adakah mereka membantu pasangan.
are they demanding
adakah mereka pandai memujuk
adakah mereka pandai mengusik
adakah mereka mudah tersinggung
adakah mereka kental
adakah mereka kekal bercinta
terdayakah mereka melupai semuanya.
adakah mereka jadi penggalak untuk masing-masing berjaya
adakah mereka berusaha kejar kejayaan.

Wednesday, November 07, 2012

protecting privacy

i dare not say it loud to everyone
about the daringness to bare all truth
like a cat pushed to a dead corner
looking back looking in
it will claw back, dead meat.

_____()()() dienn

Tuesday, November 06, 2012

the day, a meaningful day

10.11.12, numbers in a series.
a little rise, to make you happy
I try not to get into the subject
yea, have you forgotten your addmath?

Anja, the series is arithmetic progression
where you keep adding the same number
to let it goes up higher and higher

but dearest dont say A.P. too loud
because Ajam may think it as import permit
since he is too foreign about mechanical and auto

keep it to yourself about the magical number
as an interesting date
that will happen once
and not repeatable.

and dont worry about the surprise in store.

Have a gorgeous day!!!

two hundred and fifty five

Monday, November 05, 2012

politics getting haywire

what is it for?

as they put on masks
and walk to masses
and preach, senseless

and change them at will
the masks and sermons.
over aisles


Friday, November 02, 2012

Sitting on the step: RAP

I was sitting on a step
feeling free waiting for a snack
do I  care about more meat and fat
my skin is tight, it wont crack

and do you know that in two months
I will go up a different step
walking slow, wearing the gown
for a handshake, for a scroll

I am wearing light blue jean
choking my body to look thin
but where is the man where is him
I will drive a dagger to see him dead

am I afraid of Height

Thursday, November 01, 2012


my dear
i cajole myself
into believing that life is alright
as far as it is bearable
free within strains

oh my dear


Wednesday, October 31, 2012

picture of the week: HAVE I CROSS THE BORDER

my dear
had i cross the border
telling more than necessary
and allowing beans to spill

How would I know

my dear
didn't I tell you
about writing as adventure
fingers touching higlighter
to paint picture clearer

my dear
have you forgotten
the title you had given
"seni", the way you understand
and you never elaborate to get me comprehend.

oh, your golden friend got the flair
writing without flaw
while me writing it raw
writing with colour
and highlighter
never an eraser!

___ Dienn ___
i don't write to live.
i write to stay alive.

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

The untold secret diary

the untold secret diary.
You didn't tell much
about the existence of a book
secret diary.

I think it was about a man
a decent man of unique quality
able to explore and implore

The intro begins with a question
who is this man?
I wonder if you had found the answer.

But my dear
you had sold his soul as charity
to the orphanage of injured souls

But that didn't bother him much
since he is familiar with commodity and charity
as he walks into daily lives

About him being artistic
or seni as you had put aptly
he will never argue or complain

If fate allows him
he will shadow east to west
taking the two poles to his chest

But my dear
he is very far and yet so near
he never say a word of the secret endeavor

He was adamant once
about pleasing them by agreeing N
about loving you by marrying Z

But dear where on earth
could you find a wonderful soul
allowing two fruits in a bowl

Therefore he slackens the rope
for you to feel a little bit free
to fill up gap and achieving goal.

Dear, it is alright
let the souls be free.
don't worry.


Monday, October 29, 2012

Eliza the dancing queen.

Eliza, Kisha, Qisya
I will call her Eliza
at other times I will name her Kisha
and if I get the letters wrong, it may change to Qisya

It's every inch you my dear
to the point she pouts her mouth
and the way she express herself on stage
communicating in flawless steps
letting out mood without constraint.
her spirit is free......

She is you
every little bit

anja, it's you

Friday, October 26, 2012

should i ask, why me.


put it this way
in most simple term
why did you choose me
out of many

as we move further
not to make it tougher
why did you/me allow
for it to last a lot longer

we come to term
and you use the eraser
and I use the highlighter

it was April my dear
witnessed by Elise and Eliza.

but why me
out of  many
that you chose
until you decided
to close.

_____________ Selamat Menyambut eidul adha
maaf zahir batin ____________________________

Thursday, October 25, 2012

On term and condition, fate twisting, hearts tearing.

.what i have said, told and reminded to you before.. i say it everytime...days,weeks and months.. untill i have to shut off everything.. and you know when.. and you know why.. you can't stop me from loving you once i said ''i love you''.. it's cruel... you have made a choice.. i don't want to say it many time.. coz it's hurt.. u hear me nothing happen.. but deep inside me.. you don't wanna know. i'm a good person.. i never hurt people.. i never get a chance to love people.. because i never let myself to be loved..suddenly i did.. for once in my life. i get to know you.. and i said ''i love you''.. are you sure you don't want to see me.. at least for real? you said before.. at least few times.. you refused.. my education.. i know what i want.. i am young woman now.. i can handle myself well now..i know i can do it.. young woman.. can you believe, u the first person who said that to me.. so much ''first time'' with you..and i am going to miss it.. you know what i like about you most..'' hati seni''.. have anyone ever said to you before? let me be the first one to say it to you.. i cry everytime i pray.. when i be alone.. and you can't stop me..again, it's cruel.. this is not like a traffic light.. go whenever the sign or light shows.. stop whenever it turns red.. this is about people hearts and feeling.. yours and mine i am not so sure about you.. you're a man.. man who rule.. and make decision.. you have to know that..everything is in your hand.. i may say it once.. just remember that.. As a young woman.. who have feeling..and crushed on you.. the one that say it out, admitted. she's in love with Kha.. of coz i can never accept.. what will happen soon..sorry to say..but i have to.. picturing you on big day, say someone else's name, declare she's going to be your wife.. and live with her's a final moment, you, say the word that can only say by you.. not your ayah or mak..or sisters and brothers..or other people..they can only ask you to do so.. but they cannot do it for you..only you abang..Kha.. and then you walk to a room, to meet your wife, soulmate, the one that you will live with forever.. and share everything on first time.. you kiss her forehead.. and the ring.. you hold her hand for a ring.. a witness of all.. and.. you will share your life, everything..every single thing.. with her.. and you cannot stop me from picturing that..or imagining something beyond can't..coz it's cruel.. i may say it once.. sorry to say, it's just.. i never hide anything from you.. not even my feeling.. coz this might be the only time i have..the only chance i have.. i'm a young woman now.. her matuarity can handle herself well education is my priority.. whatever happen..Sorry this speech goes to Kha.. i miss you .. see you when i see you..assalamualaikum.

Over the years

we are quite old fashioned, always giving priority to our staff going up the ranks and ladder. I cant remember a single time that we had to get new recruitment for critical position. We treasure loyalty my dear.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

picture of the week: DID YOU REMEMBER? (1)

It's a lovely day for you
helping out a family day of sort
games, shouts, uhh, ahh, ohh.

and  for me
weekend  was funny sort
making or breaking via D and K.
greasing bonds and bones

you said

"abang, boleh tak datang kejap...."

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

economics hidden hands

Dearest, I meander a  little bit away from the emotional ride. I am taking you to the brutal truth of economics.  First how would you view the whole economic of the country.  I leave it to you to form an early mould. Yea, your two year exposure on economics should provide some economic fundamentals. I on the other hand dont enjoy such luxury. The nearest to economics is when I was exposed to the mechanics of investment, rate of return, profit loses and cash flow. That was many years ago.

The real exposure was when we had to embark on real business.


Sunday, October 21, 2012

Who is in joyous mood.?

the coming
of dawn

as it's worth
over a pawn
a blacken dime

and now
it's about
realising dreams
for years to come.

am I getting older?

Saturday, October 20, 2012


is the time
when you can't hold back
even the tears.

Friday, October 19, 2012

the many titles

I am accustomed to different names
acik to the little ones over the south china sea
alang to my own little team
and along to my other side
and ayah to my little one.

and you will soon get the many titles
my dearest.


Thursday, October 18, 2012


We went over to Bintulu for a scheduled appointment. The stake was high, the volume was large, the anticipation was awesome.  It has always been Alb and Gilb to do the negotiation over there, across the south china sea. They pushed it to me, to explore, to hold the pace, to offer alternatives, to persuade and to finally clinch. I wonder if both of them, my dearest friends were smiling or laughing or crying as they held their breaths without a word. 

We were laughing later. Huh, they can be so cruel to push me to the edge of cliff in their own motherland. It was fun, everything was alright .

To explore, set no limit......

whiteness of white


Wednesday, October 17, 2012

mine forever

It is not to sound too possessive
grabbing and chaining without any slackness
my dear, it;s probably about commitment
ever, forever, until death do us apart

Wasn't that displayed well on blue white card
that's words, the permanence of heart and spirit
there is another that will deviate and change over years
within rigidity, within flexibility within the boundary.

It's sweet to jump into the sea with love at at heart
that would help in time of trouble asking for comittment

DOWN THE RIVER: picture of the week

Did you remember
paper boat
the story of a girl
coming down the river

Did you remember
the paper she was holding
a pink letter written in blue

She folded
and turned to a boat
and pushed down the river

___ dienn __

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

a man and a bike

There was a man in tattered dress cycling an old bike along the highway. I thought that has the weirdest thing I ever seen. He was alone, cycling in a slow pace. He must have traveled far, and I wonder if he has reached his destination. I wonder if he himself can tell where he is heading to.

I saw him again a week later around the bazaar near Stadium Shah Alam, sitting at the roadside. I gave him RM100, he said nothing. His teary eyes was the only mode of communication that morning.

Monday, October 15, 2012

"seni" abg lain... org lain, lain.

Entah, itu juga yang mahu disebut
seni waktu
anja suka dengan perkataan 'seni'...
seni?...what is it
utk dia..
'seni'..lebih dari halus...
n tak semua org nampak...hanya bila kita perasaan...
n..sorry..tak bleh hurai yg lain..

dia baik....hati halus...
suke menulis....
 bila tgk org..kita guna 'seni'...
 baru bleh kenal dia...

hmmm.... ramai org "seni" macam dia yg anja kenal
 'seni' berbeza utk setiap individu
 'seni' abg lain..lain..
 n..'seni' abg...anja suka...mmm

seni macam mana lak...nak gak tau
 itu yg anja tak bleh cerita..sorry
hmmm.... kekadang kita tak tau diri kita....
 org yang nampak....kite tak sedar
yer...itu la die   'seni'..lebih dari micro...

hmmm.... tak boleh tenguk dengan mikroskop....
tak nampak..macam kabus...
tenguk dengan hati...boleh nampak...
namanya 'mata hati'...hehe
ye la tu....
anja jarang puji abg......

Saturday, October 13, 2012

you did try to keep slimmer


I dont what to say
since you had gone out of the way
to put flesh tighter without sway
as you move here or away

It's the slimmer figure
that grip the gown tighter
and the fitter figure
you did look like an angel.

perfecting lines


If there are a thousand lines
connecting roots and shoots
can we climb up to the periphery
and clear up all soot.

Friday, October 12, 2012

sojourner a mystery.

I am here to stay
a sojourner I may say
I will never leave you alone
in the world we call home

I have only a life
not multifaced
I hold on to the trust
that we dont get erased

It's life as we understand
being fair and yet cruel
taking bits and moments
for a sweet duel

I let out a bit of me
as I dwell on the family
about them and me
as we safeguard sanity

Now that you found happiness
with the man that will take you far
I pray for your brightest future
and you can allow sad memories get blur

I will never let you down
if that worries you
I will safeguard treasures
sweetness, pain and worries
far from anyone, the way I can

If anything I write here hurt you
let me know, let me know
just let me know.

Thursday, October 11, 2012

My worry over media brother

The world he is roaming
The hours on his schedule
The places on his whereabouts
The people on his appointments
are aliens to me.

But he is cruising happily
coming home with joyous antics
making it effortless to grab mom
to the brink of childhood days
as he kisses mom's hands.

So he too breaks into new terrain
playing it cool, splashing it out
with media hype as his cup of tea
never a world I am familiar.

His smile is effortless
always deceiving for we never know
what's within the smile and laughter.

Good luck to his engagement.
my dearest media brother.


Wednesday, October 10, 2012

THE VOICE , OVER AND EVER: picture of the week

is the facade you know
it's audible audio, not visible video
as I pushed through milik siapakah...
as I gasped over jangan tinggal daku...

we looked, not knowing
It's best that way.


Tuesday, October 09, 2012

All within April Anja.

Monday April 2nd 9pm is the date and time I will remember for a very long time. and there is a photo to commemorate that a week later. I really understand your feelings, and I suppose you really need to wait to the end, when a goodbye has to go along with a new journey. Comes May and June and  by July all dust seems to settle.

Enjoy your time and moments, you deserve most. And the sky is clear now Anja....


Monday, October 08, 2012

Erti sabar untuk seorang kakak

Aku doakan untuk kakak sejuta kesabaran
waktu-waktu dingin mencium pipi firdaus
dalam kusut jiwa membelai rambut naim
waktu melangkah tinggalkan adam
waktu pulang, segera mencari muhammad.

Ada mereka yang dikasihi Tuhan, lebih diuji
mengajak kefahaman nilai cinta dan kasih
walau derita pada mata, namun sayang dalam hati
demi kasih sejati anak dikasihi


Katakan pada kakak
bukan hak kita, nafikan erti semua ini
walaupun sehari, kasih tidak terluak
hanya penuh kasih, teramat sayang
memaut semua sekali dalam pelukan, dalam kalbu
abang, adik, kakak, ayah dan ibu......

semua hanyalah ujian
untuk kita cari dimana hujung kasih dan sayang
demi anak, ikatan kasih abadi.......................

uncle dienn_________

Sunday, October 07, 2012

I dont want it on the wall.

memories like a tunnel
I want to see it like a tunnel
so I can walk through,
 not like an artifact
memories on the wall
hanged on the wall.


Saturday, October 06, 2012

Manja, nama itu.

bukan dulu satu nama untukmu
Tika masa mengheret waktu

kalau kau mahu ulang lagi
nama itu, nama yang itu
tidak mengapa.

cuma aku takut
nama itu mampu menggugat
waktu-waktu senangmu......

Tidak mengapa mAnja,
mungkin aku terlebih bimbang
manalah tahu, aku terjentik pintu terlarang
waktu meneroka kedepan dan menoleh kebelakang.


Friday, October 05, 2012

erti cinta

Apa cinta itu perlu dicari  
Apa cinta itu perlu dikejari
Apa cinta itu perlu dibelai
Apa cinta itu dijumpai

Apa cinta itu perlu ada noktah
Apa cinta itu perlu diuji
Apa cinta itu turut dinodai

Apa cinta itu difahami
Apa cinta itu dilubuk hati
Apa cinta itu perlu deklamasi
Apa cinta itu kekal abadi

apa cinta itu boleh dikongsi
apa cinta itu perlu demonstrasi
apa cinta itu perlu berbukti

apa cinta itu gembira
apa cinta itu derita
apa cinta itu puaka

________ Dienn

Thursday, October 04, 2012

my worry, on responsibility

the bigger responsibility
I was discussing with friends about getting youngsters strongly into rural related business. There is big volume of money to be explored and yet they shy away. When it comes to business, the rule is about capital  investment, profit reaped and local manpower deployment. Nature of business, the activities and the areas are not too important. People had been too simplistic putting rural development aside as being dirty and backward adventure. We look purely into rate of return on investment. So far we refuse to take in any foreign workers,  

Getting youngsters involved into the details will in the long run promise a fantastic future for our country. I hereby humble myself.

Are you reading anja?  

am not an alien

Wednesday, October 03, 2012

a gentle walk: picture of the week

gentle walk
It's never within my expectation
to be invited to such important occasion
because I once had put a constraint
putting a black block which finally cause endless pain

She is better off at one point
for displaying glimpse of what need to be known
and she is smart in placing a definite block
to ease her along the aisle, a gentle walk.

It is not important how I feel
and it is not important too
to expose the searing  pain
because we appreciate the glow of wisdom

we may want to lay down
on a naked lawn, looking at stars
we may want to wake up
on a soft bed, feeling sweet and fresh.

I had sent congratulatory note my own way
the very same way as we walked down two thousand six
at the edge of beautiful bloom
as petal slowly opened, one by one
and opening the nakedness of beauty and truth
as we walked on a journey of joyous ecstasy
of blooming love and endless friendship.

but dear, we do go from now, are you happy?

ground zero

Tuesday, October 02, 2012

if you ever feel uneasy

My own emotional overflow
or emotional outburst
may cause uneasiness
on you

that I wouldn't know

It's not much of pages reopened
or putting varnish on old furniture
or setting fire to an old house

It's in fact my way of re evaluation
of paths taken

and to me my dearest
looking back is as important
as focusing at tunnels ahead

that's the way we have done
to steer business forward
and past happenings
will give some indications
to what to be expected.

and it's the same with my reawakening
with the help of the little one
bundling up respect and responsibility
for a brief glimpse of love

and the way forward
will be tuned up nicely
steering through hurdles

You let me know
if looking back doesn't make you happy.

dienn p_q_r_s

Monday, October 01, 2012

Business, a tactical approach.

Many jump into business without slightest idea where would the adventure lead to. It's not that simple and straight forward.

We were young, energetic and brimming with ideas. We were naive at the beginning, but the fact that we were able to sit down regularly and did exploratory discussions, business began to make sense. It's like taking a piece of string and make a loop around what we envisage as our own business. We scrutinise everything within the loop to avoid the less important issues and distractions.

The whole concept of products, product development, market volume, marketing strategy, price fixing, profit maximisation, roll out plan, quickwin and quickgain, maket participation, short and long term strategy etc lead to what we term as tactical approach. It's not the text book theoretical approach, but more of our own homegrown concept. We didn't study business, but we do business in the way we thought best. It worked with some buoyancy.

A thing worth mentioning here is the importance of mentoring.  There should be someone you should turn to, for guidance at critical shift of business focus and diversification. So far not a single business area we embark on doesn't make headway...... everything seems to be moving and developing. The tactical approach is the whole thing, everything moulded into one single formula. Getting really involved and absorbed make business less difficult. It is all fun.

Are you reading?.... :)

it's not always about a dime!

Sunday, September 30, 2012

may i remind you, serenity seemingly endless

how can I put it to you,
that there is a blog idling
on the other side of black/white world
very melodic, serenity seemingly endless

and a question I wish to ask
do you happen to forget the id and password
that the blog should stay as looking
and yet not knowing.

It's within your choice dearest,
either it deserves to be dormant indefinitely
or it stays awake in the blackness of night
or with a little jerk, it gets morning refreshment
or you wish to kill it off as brutal settlement..

but you may wish to deviate a bit
as we had familiarised ourselves
over years of alerts and alarms
to breath life into it's innocent soul.

a step, always a step

Saturday, September 29, 2012

separate cars

Someone did mention it to me
that wouldn't it be nice and sweet
if we travel together
to work, in the same car
myself and little one's mother.

Familiarity brings contempt
is the phrase seldom used
but that is a definite reminder
by the olds to the youngs.

I generally am not office bound,
mind and soul are all over
the many business ventures.

So we keep going to work in separate cars.


Friday, September 28, 2012

The closeness

Is it reciprocity I wonder,
or a pure mutuality
of the two souls
I, a learning dad
she, a growing daughter.

For having to be away often
on responsibility not forsaken
on assignments to be driven
and she learns about the absence.

An effort to cope with relationship
developing the familiarity and kinship
as I downgrade my vocabulary
for an adventure I reserve no worry

I am beginning to learn
within that split second shift
between eyes and lips
of how she pushes emotional signal
through her two lovely eyes
followed a second later by the beautiful lips
as she assembled little words
as she yelled out loud
as she invited me
as she seek attention
through the journey of closeness

and now I am the learner.....

I learn to stay

Thursday, September 27, 2012

It's my turn to say

Lets stretch far back to early years
when we share moments to the depth of night
giving meaning to the reality of friendship
as an entity without form but substance.

It was the period when waiting is killing
as we began to explore the core and the circumference
undertanding the constraint and yet kept sailing
as I mentioned about the two names.

The peculiarity of twist of fate
putting mkckzpn and me in a soup hotter than fire
pushing myself to the brink of sanity
retreating for  solace in a far away place.

As the the trauma healed over time
there is need for new chapter
and in their hope for a repair
pushing myself into a bout of another despair

It was Lia and then sister's friend.
and they cant find a better chance
not understanding what's in my mind
as I nurse the cut my way, my own way

It was you my dearest
the dearest of friend
that rekindle the flame
that I thought had been dim, never fire.

_______ dienn _______
twisting fate, tearing hearts

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

OH DEAR : picture of the week

the little one
The heat in her,
my little one,
as the scale passed beyond normal,
and the way she cried,
over my shoulder.............

and she said something,
in painful tears,
as i put medicine in her little mouth.

and she wouldn't allow me
to go beyond her reach
even for a minute.

___ dienn ___
dad to the little one.

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

I really want to write this.

It was supposed to be a deciding moment, the day when I stopped at Gxcxck. I called and you were not there. The stop at Gxcxck was meant to be a complete U-turn of my life and yours too. Only my little sister knew, because she was with me. But let's not harp over the past, because we only have future to walk through.

_______ dienn _______

tears of damning dawn


Monday, September 24, 2012

bunga aroma, warna irama

purple aroma irama
kembang semalam
menyerlah, kuncup dan gugur
aroma yang mengasyik
celah warna yang mengusik
bersalut rentak irama dinamik

yang gugur itu fizikal
yang abadi tentu memori.

memori tersemat di hati

untukmu masa yang bahagia
selama-lamanya, satu doa.

___ pqrs ___
i am always here

Sunday, September 23, 2012

anda harus cuba

anda telah cuba
memberi tanda-tanda
reaksi pada tanya-tanya

namun anda masih takut-takut
untuk memberi satu deklarasi
tentang anda dan dia.

pertama anda perlu segera
tukarkan status anda di alam maya

tiada apa yang perlu ditakuti.
aku kekal di tepi dan sentiasa mengamati.

jangan ada sesiapa menganiyai si puteri
sumber ilham jantung hati.

____ PQrs____
have a nice day

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Debaran untuk pengantin

Itulah yang dirasa
waktu mengatur langkah
meneroka liku-liku hidup
esuk lusa

dengan diiringi doa
titisan air mata gembira
memimpin ke tangga persada
untuk masa, demi masa.

i am here to stay
i have not pushed my email away,

Friday, September 21, 2012

Wedding Poem - Puisi perkahwinan

- by the perfect bridesmaid

Wedding Night
The night you have dreamed of is finally here
The future surrounds you with hope and yet fear
You’ve wanted so long to find your perfect mate
Sip this wine and toast this perfect date
The night is meant for you to share
Enjoy each other – a perfect pair!!

First Fight
When fights occur and tempers get hot
Pour a glass and be thankful for what you’ve got
If you always agreed it would certainly be a bore
And by asking for (BRIDE's) hand (GROOM) is surely
in for more!

First Anniversary
Been married a year, where did the time go?
No longer newlyweds, now you are pros
Hope the days found you in good health and
good spirit
Keep saying I love you –
one always needs to hear it!
Now toast this first date, it’s certainly not the last
And as you build your future don’t ever forget
the past!

First Dinner Party
Open your home to entertain and eat
Catch up with old friends and new ones to meet
When the night is over share this bottle of wineBut don’t sit down yet – it’s clean up time!!

First Baby
The news that a baby will soon share your life
will make you a mother, not only a wife
You’ll see it through good times and sometimes
through bad
(BRIDE) the loving mother
and (GROOM) the dearest dad
Sadly Lonnie must drink this one alone, and (BRIDE) with an empty glass
Sit back and relax – nine months will quickly pass!

Thursday, September 20, 2012

story of a young lady

cuti kawin
There was this young lady
been with us for the last two years
asking for a week leave
when we were at the peak of activities

but how can I say no
to her appropriateness
being responsible and ever sweet
and now ready to wrap it up
with solemn oath and wedding bliss

I wish her every luck
to open up a new page, a shared page
lianna and .khairul

I keep opening mine
but some pages are found missing.

dienn, i will  go

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

picture of the week: SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU

khas untuk Anja - September 2012
as in flickr

“She Walks in Beauty” by Lord Byron

She walks in beauty, like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies;
And all that's best of dark and bright

Meet in her aspect and her eyes:
Thus mellow'd to that tender light
Which heaven to gaudy day denies.

One shade the more, one ray the less,
Had half impair'd the nameless grace
Which waves in every raven tress,
Or softly lightens o'er her face;
Where thoughts serenely sweet express
How pure, how dear their dwelling-place.

And on that cheek, and o'er that brow,
So soft, so calm, yet eloquent,
The smiles that win, the tints that glow,
But tell of days in goodness spent,
A mind at peace with all below,
A heart whose love is innocent!

for you Anja

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

doctor sister

medica sista
I was joking with her    
about a doctor lying in bed
waiting for another doctor
to help deliver a baby..

Her little ones had grown
and they keep picking on me
as their taekwon-do sparring partner
everytime we bump into one another
as the title gets shorter, alang.
and they are almost inseparable
to other little one, lienn the new darling

On rare quiet moments
we used to talk on that issue
- the route of a strict traditional family.
Now we seldom talk about it
as we dwell in that house
and she slowly becoming  the matriarch!

- Anja, moga bahagia selamanya
- september 2012

____ Dienn ____ PQRS ____ 

Monday, September 17, 2012

woman in suit, is that you.

she, confident.

and that is the business cut
a real cutting edge
that i had been visualising
of her demeanor
engaging, ever absorbing
into work
so smooth, almost effortless

She will glide
through people and work
keeping everyone on schedule
She will smile
keeping everyone happy
building up enthusiasm

She is ever absorbing
she, professional
She is ever engaging

a lady in suit
a smart lady

That's her.......
a lady i know for years...

- Anja, moga bahagia selamanya
- september 2012

___ dienn ___

Sunday, September 16, 2012

fairlady, very sleek

I wasn't very fashionable
"skema" as you said, or old fashioned
and yet I bought something memorable
for myself, not for anyone else
as I stroll along Likas Bay
on cool windy days
to view the clearest of sky
to sooth the agony and sorrow
to rekindle spirit and bruised ego
to open up the heart to the sky
with familiar setting across the sea
kissing the sweetest of salty air

my fairlady stays there.
not sleezy... but sleek my dear

May your future be as happy and bright
as you imagine.

nissan fairlady
september 2012