what is best?

mathematics taught us about right answer,

but there could be many ways 

to get to the right answer, all are right.

if the question evolves around what's best,

it is not fair to handle it as mathematics,

because life with it's multiplicity

would not be in congruence  

with simple equation.

if discussion goes around Love

then the yardstick is the Heart

and Feelings that come along.

Some  will be forgotten as time goes
but Love is not like chipsmore
easily melt and soften

It stays , never erased.
but some may question
what's worth of such love
what can it do

a maturing pain

such love cant be measured in gains
unfair to put it in a scale
and determine of it's superlative
good better best......

it's a maturing pain
that's what i think
it will stay
forever, ever....
the love, and that's the best for us.
it hurts, it's painful
it's maturing pain

....................... me.

making the blog __ p r i v a t e __

I googled to find how

to make a blog private
the info I read shows
that blog can be made really secret

The blogger needs to screen
and choose particular reader
if it's between dienn and lienn
Dienn needs lienn's email address

I suppose there could be a stumbling block
as Lienn has no email or facebook
just in case Lienn already had one
she would have it written down
the email address somewhere..

It cant be ordinary email
i guess it must relate to blogger
the email lienn would sign in as user.....

I know if lienn wish to share
she would just let me know
and if her email is real secret
she can just put somewhere
for a day or two then delete

I know lienn is good at erasing
I am good at highlighting
But I will not hurt lienn in anyway
for lienn needs a space to grow....



.................dienn

keep it tight

love him all out
since child is 85 percent him
as a result of mutual existence
a solemn agreement
a contract

i learn the hard way
taking everything within strides
placing solemn agreement as highest priority
and yet still unable to delete
the earlier agreement

it's blurry
but it never dies






///dienn.

remember what u say

and that's not to be displayed
not ever.
it is not much of an effort
to pull out from the bottom of heart
in it's burial place.

explore

We went over to Bintulu for a scheduled appointment. The stake was high, the volume was large, the anticipation was awesome.  It has always been Alb and Gilb to do the negotiation over there, across the south china sea. They pushed it to me, to explore, to hold the pace, to offer alternatives, to persuade and to finally clinch. I wonder if both of them, my dearest friends were smiling or laughing or crying as they held their breaths without a word. 

We were laughing later. Huh, they can be so cruel to push me to the edge of cliff in their own motherland. It was fun, everything was alright .

To explore, set no limit......

may i remind you, serenity seemingly endless

dearest,
how can I put it to you,
that there is a blog idling
on the other side of black/white world
very melodic, serenity seemingly endless

Blog

and a question I wish to ask
do you happen to forget the id and password
that the blog should stay as looking
and yet not knowing.

It's within your choice dearest,
either it deserves to be dormant indefinitely
or it stays awake in the blackness of night
or with a little jerk, it gets morning refreshment
or you wish to kill it off as brutal settlement..

but you may wish to deviate a bit
as we had familiarised ourselves
over years of alerts and alarms
to breath life into it's innocent soul.





______________
Dienn
a step, always a step

I really want to write this.

ikatan

It was supposed to be a deciding moment, the day when I stopped at Gxcxck. I called and you were not there. The stop at Gxcxck was meant to be a complete U-turn of my life and yours too. Only my little sister knew, because she was with me. But let's not harp over the past, because we only have future to walk through.


_______ dienn _______
tears of damning dawn

   

wondering

what would you say
and
what would i say

when we decide on a common theme