she did it once

lienn is big enough
to grasp on norms and expectations


once
she had something to say
while i was engaged in discussion with a friend

"Lienn, can you wait a while"

i saw slight change in her mood
ummi was quick to notice
and quickly took lienn to one side
and settled her concern

and after that
lienn has some understanding
about norms and expectations.
about courtesy in conversation




...................... dienn
next: I call, I sleep

i wonder

i am just thinking

if the blog should stay public
for whoever accidently gets into it

0r would it be better
if I make it very private
for whoever the blog meant for

and i am trying to see
what should i do..
But I love writing
to pour thoughts
and to ease mind.
and to sooth soul


............................ dienn

aspiration

a hope

a wish

a burning desire

..to get on

..to walk on

..to strive forward

not forgetting to look back

to gauge the distance

to feel the scale of achievement.

____from dienn____

next:  bubur lambuk

serious, all of them.

indeed.

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dienn.............................................................
[ next:  I will go, turn and turn from petrol kiosk]

nak senyummmmmmm................................

it's not 7.30 today

hmmm..... i woke up too early
to  understand the sweet dream.
I had with you.






.... dienn.............................

It's A Brand New Day

It's A Brand New Day

Leave back all your worries and troubles of yesterday,
Make yourself a silent promise to make today a better day. 
Now my dear friend, a brand new day lays ahead of you,
Face it with pride, because it is a gift and is totally new. 
May all your goals and ambitions for the day be set,
I wish you have an amazing day and a night without regrets.
Good morning buddy. Have a grand day! 

poem by wishafriend 

.... dienn.
it's seven thirty dear
where are you, I wonder.

THE YOUNG MOTHER'S VISION

Title:     The Young Mother's Vision
Author: Thomas Cowherd 

I saw a fair young mother sitting,
With a babe upon her knee;
Fast through 'er mind sweet thoughts were flitting--
So it did appeal to me.

Her eyes with fondest smiles were beaming
On that infant's lovely face;
She seemed upon the future dreaming,
And I tried her dream to trace.

While her face with love was glowing,
As her babe looked up and smiled;
Thus I sketched her numbers flowing
Freely forth unto her child:

"Charming boy, in beauty vieing
With the fairest rose I see;
This I need not be denying,
That thou dearer art to me.

"Whilst thou slept, I fell to musing
On thy present happy lot;
And thy future for thee choosing,
Soon all other thoughts forgot.

"Thus I chose at first to paint thee--
Growing up toward thy teens;
No corruption near to taint thee
Passing through thy boyish scenes.

"Then I traced out all the labor
Which I would bestow on thee,
That thou mightest grow in favor
With the Lord, as well as me.

"Next I viewed thy mind expanding,
With the best of knowledge stored:
Light divine, and understanding
Gained from God's most holy Word.

"Years flew by; thou wert approaching
Very near to man's estate,
And, to those, around, wert broaching
Thy deep thoughts, with soul elate!

"Again I saw thee; thou wert coming
To the heights of world-wide fame;
My fears arose, I saw ills looming,
And bid thee guard thy spotless name.

"I looked again, and found thee wooing
Damsel modest, rich and fair;
And wicked men sought thy undoing,
Ere thou wert the least aware.

"But, thanks to God! He did preserve thee--
Gave thee, too, a lovely wife;
For duty this afresh did nerve thee,
Struggling with the ills of life.

"Again the vision passed before me,
But some years had fled away;
Thou hadst been sick, the Lord restored thee--
Children were around at play.

"I saw thy wife and thee were growing
In sweetest chaste conjugal love;
To things of God attention showing,
Fitting you for bliss above.

"The curtain drops: thy smiles recall me
To discharge my duties right;
Rich mercies I enjoy console me
For the loss of Vision bright."

1854.

what's there to forget

we are the product of happenings
of yesterday and before yesterday
we are what we are today
over routes we had taken

If it wasn't due to yesterdays
we could have been someone else,
beyond our dream and measure
There's no telling what the eventual
going to be..



... dienn

Defining WHY and WHY

it's the total sum of steps

taken to arrive

which ever way 

we choose to go.

it's also about the total benefits

either way,

negative and positive

it's also about the aggregate of mood

being happy and it's opposite

as we move on

it's also about accepting

as we measure the appropriateness

on a scale yet to be defined.

finally it's whatever we treasure

that will evolve and grow

as long as we allow.

with the grasp of comprehension.

....... dienn

Dukung

a mystery, 

dream come true?' 

I am asking you

A dream

A dream
for the future
a dream
into reality you prefer

a dream
to see the big world
a dream
to see crowd
charting the earth as diplomat.

a dream
to venture into legal practice
another stint for further studies.

Set the tone.
but you are no more alone
my dear, talk it over at home.

my dear, 

you future, 

your dream, 

your adventure.

__dienn__
wish you luck, my dear

Cajole

my dear
i cajole myself
into believing that life is alright
as far as it is bearable
free within strains

oh my dear




dienn_

I dont want it on the wall.

memories like a tunnel

I want to see it like a tunnel
so I can walk through,
 not like an artifact

memories on the wall

hanged on the wall.




P
Q
r
s
___________nneid

may i remind you, serenity seemingly endless

dearest,
how can I put it to you,
that there is a blog idling
on the other side of black/white world
very melodic, serenity seemingly endless

Blog

and a question I wish to ask
do you happen to forget the id and password
that the blog should stay as looking
and yet not knowing.

It's within your choice dearest,
either it deserves to be dormant indefinitely
or it stays awake in the blackness of night
or with a little jerk, it gets morning refreshment
or you wish to kill it off as brutal settlement..

but you may wish to deviate a bit
as we had familiarised ourselves
over years of alerts and alarms
to breath life into it's innocent soul.





______________
Dienn
a step, always a step

Dearest za-anja

I will no more write about feelings
which has to be left aside
for future path ahead.

The objectivity in life
will form some guidance
for decent journey forward

There would be a few things
I would do for you
nothing that you have to know.

it's all within my capacity
as much as I have done to the Rohingyas
and the Filipinos
and the Cambodians
and other friends.

and you dont have to know....


enjoy your weekend!

DealovaAku ingin menjadi mimpi indahDalam tidurmuAku ingin menjadi sesuatuYang mungkin bisa kau rindu
Karena langkah merapuhTanpa dirimuOh... Karena hati tlah letih
Aku ingin menjadi sesuatuYang slalu bisa kau sentuhAku ingin kau tahu bahwa akuSelalu memujamu
Tanpamu sepinya waktuMerantai hatiOh... Bayangmu seakan-akan
Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku yangMemanggil rinduku padamuSeperti udara yang kuhela kau selalu ada
Oh...
Hanya dirimuYang bisa membuatku tenangTanpa dirimuAku merasa hilang... dan sepiDan sepi...
Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku yangMemanggil rinduku padamuSeperti udara yang kuhela kau selalu ada
Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku yangMemanggil rinduku padamuSeperti udara yang kuhela kau selalu ada
Selalu ada...Kau selalu ada...Selalu ada...Kau selalu ada...

Dearest Anja

I can write a lot about you
my dearest anja...

but I would rather contain them
within memories.

as we walked through the years
since two thousand six.

enjoy your weekend!

Milik Siapakah Gadis Ini - Sudirman 
Milik siapakah gadis iniWajah lembut bagaikan suteraIngin hatinya ku milikiApakan terdayaAdakahkan terdaya
Milik siapakah hati iniBagai berkurun lama kesepianIngin aku mencurahkan kasihKepada yang sudiAdakah ia sudi
Lama telah ku impikanGadis sepertinyaMengisi taman hatiDengan cahaya kasih (suci)Siapakah gadis yang ku idam

knock and knock

it's a knock,
about a signal
that will trigger
something else to roll and flow.

a knock is a comma,
never a full stop
and knowing you
I have no doubt
about you doing the easy thing
knocking your inner self
in time of trouble
worry
and sadness.

Now that you have gone out of the shell
putting strength onto yourself
releasing emotional colours with radiance
to recap what's had been missing
within the reality of living.

you will be alright.

Do what you have to do

Life is definite
even though we get to junctions
the next path is a choice
for better or for worse

We cannot turn back
to rewind
because it will forever hurting
unless we are able
to erase and redo.

wondering

what would you say
and
what would i say

when we decide on a common theme