Thursday, July 31, 2014

Duit Raya

so it goes
a day to receive
packets of duit raya
and so they count
how much each gets

lienn can count numbers
but when  it's too much
she stops counting
and her cousins do that for her
and she learns along the way

But rienn doesn't care

During rare quiet moment
I remember a number
two five five.
and my heart twitch a little.

::::: dienn:::::

Wednesday, July 30, 2014


it's nice to be off
out of the tense world of WORK
and get down to the real WORLD
of earth, sea and river
of buluh, pulut and palas
of lemang, ketupat and rendang
of pelita raya
lightening each corner of hearts
full of blessings
understanding giving, needing
and forgiving.....

I am again trying
in a familiar setting
of my very own roots
back home, my own kampung.

.... dienn

Tuesday, July 29, 2014


walau duduk berjarak
kita tetap dekat berdakap
bukan dalam api cinta menyala
tapi dalam api yang masih membara


Monday, July 28, 2014

Eidil Fitri

It's a special day,
over success.
of a month efforts.

Shall success grow
as tall as the tallest mountain


Shall family become strong
withstanding endless pressure
as everyone walks on
a never ending journey.

Selamat Hari Raya Eidil Fitri
Maaf Zahir Batin.................

+++++ Dienn++++++++
you think i forget to wish?

Sunday, July 27, 2014

the big sister

she had enough training
by the best mentor, ummi
having to put toys back
to where they come from.

It's about repetitive experience
over days and weeks
then experience turns into habits
and that's the way we grow.

and now 
she really behaves like big sister
getting rienn to put toys back
to where they come from.

and I always feel like laughing
as she helps rienn
and keeps saying
adik, simpan balik
nanti sepah
ummi marah

and she says that
in such jovial rhythmic manner
with eyes and lips, wide grinning.


Saturday, July 26, 2014


some live to survive another day
some care less what tomorrow has in store
then we pity why the poor mother
having to work and leave the poor son
and people of different backgrounds
may wonder and curse
as if the son is left to die

Then maternal love 
is caught again 
by the big chain of survival
people curse less
but care more.


Friday, July 25, 2014

caught in between

many love to scrutinize the technicalities
about reasons and details
about how plane vanished into thin air
and get stuck into the damned theory
of deep indian ocean.

then we were caught again
with mid air explosion
pieces strewn over land
of a different continent

with evidence or not
the story remains as old as history of mankind
about never ending battles
always with economy in mind
greased with utter greed.

That's how the story goes
about being caught in between.


Thursday, July 24, 2014

zakat fitrah

a taxation
taking bits from everyone
forming a large fund
to be distributed through 8 asnaf

a perfect system
once a year
as we go through fasting
as a process of self awareness,
self cleansing towards communal sustainability


Wednesday, July 23, 2014

bubur lambuk

Yea yea yea
we all grew differently
in different environments

with different family bond
with different exposure
with different experience

Even in puasa month
i feel the differences in food 
when ummi so used to different bubur lambuk.
adding bits of meat
while I am so used to prawns as adds-on

but for the kids
we allow both versions
to be prepared and served
so that they know the intertwined roots
of their own parents.


next: fitrah

Tuesday, July 22, 2014


a hope
a wish

a burning desire get on walk on strive forward

not forgetting to look back
to gauge the distance
to feel the scale of achievement.

____from dienn____

next:  bubur lambuk

Monday, July 21, 2014

a sweet space, a code.

it's a space
free and sweet
it's freedom
of thought
and that lies hidden
from the eyes.

it comes
with a code
created in 2011
as flowers bloomed
in summer of July
when counted
there were 25

they were so sweet
with lovely fragrance
that was beyond this world
and we both bath in scented pool
feeling young and fresh
the night and the rest of nights

So the code needs to be broken
to get to the truth.

____ dienn ____
where is it?

next: aspiration

Sunday, July 20, 2014



She can really smile
free and happy
big and wide

Her eyes sparkle
reflecting her innermost soul

with hair tied at the back
allowing a few to show
to stage the perfect beauty
of a young lady.

__ dienn __

Next》 .. a sweet space, a code.

Saturday, July 19, 2014

We went out

One of the many days
that ummi shines with joy
as we get on the car
the whole family.

It's shopping day
to join the big crowd
as Raya is nearing
allowing lienn and rienn
learn about celebrating.
getting into the mood of Eid.

,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, dienn

next: sayang

Friday, July 18, 2014


I would love to give her
the head massage
to clear off migraine
of burning stress
of constant worries

It was quite interesting to note
that she came around at 4.30am
to open up the little window
just maybe the migraine
had all gone
she is completely cured.

__ dienn __

next:  we went out

Thursday, July 17, 2014

she learns to decide....

Blue is almost exclusively mine
in cloths i wear
but over recent years i mellow a little bit
allowing ummi to choose concept
for occasions like Raya

and recently as we were flicking through brochures
ummi asked lienn which one she prefer
and surprisingly she said blue......

blue?.... ummi asked
and she just giggled
saying.... macam ayah.

so we all go blues.........

............... dienn.

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

the love in him.

he remember things so clear
the day you said hello
and for god knows it went deeper
over days and weeks.

what's the chemistry that bind
two hearts staying apart
over seas and mountains so high
and feeling that came along....

how the hearts felt for one another
and shared dreams and reality
and they never hide their true feeling

they shared quiet moments together
into the depth of nights
until dew drops fell on them
through laughters and joy...

and every time he remembered,
he felt the twitch
going into his heart
and he kept saying
the fire never died
the flame keep burning
brightening his true-self

and he had to agree
that the binding love never die
as he keep soothing himself
of the special love
a never dying love.

He remembered the beautiful face
the youthful perfect love
that for countless times
broke to lovely smile
such  beautiful lips
and sensual flowing hair.
and the eyes.....

he still remember the songs
slow and casual into the morning
and she was ever kind
for never once develop into anger

he remember
he remember
for ever....

...................... dienn,

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

i wanna hold you

we met twice
after all these years
via familiar media

i want you
sweet as ever

and you
will seek permission
to be away
as the name goes
i got to go

oh my darling....

,,,,,,,,, dienn

Monday, July 14, 2014

dream of you

there are times
when i wish to sleep
with the dream of mine

how i wish
the dream to last
until sky begin to light

all the dreams
were sweet
with you my darling
in a binding love

............... dienn

Sunday, July 13, 2014

she joined once....

we let her had a feel
to go through 8 raka'ats
but she just did Two
and for the rest of time
she ventured around
with peers, her age...

and back home
she would tell everyone
that she had  new friends.

Oh lienn...

..................... dienn

Saturday, July 12, 2014

swimming to the shore

the lovely sound of splash
as we swim against waves
strokes after strokes
to reach to the shore.

i love the happy face
as we reach and sit in the sand
brushing aside the wet hairs
and touch the lips, forever wet

i remember how you swim
stretching hands and turning face
always stay afloat to breath
as time goes, with shorter breaths
you never seem to forget
to let me know, that it's almost there
and i keep swimming
to stay afloat
so i wont get drowned.

i keep watching you darling
your happy face
lovely lips
lovely eyes
everything in loving mood.

.................... dienn.

Friday, July 11, 2014

the cousins came

everybody came
as a ritual of sort
changing place
so families always in accord.

Lienn is not the eldest
but she played the real host
showing cousins her books and toys
and rienn just tag along.

It's the ritual
of getting together
putting them as pals
now and forever.

We were there
wondering how future would fare
for all of them,
our younger generation.

..................... dienn

Thursday, July 10, 2014

My Funny Valentine

Alice Fredenham - My Funny Valentine
My funny valentine
Sweet comic valentine
You make me smile with my heart
Your looks are laughable 

Yet youre my favourite work of art
Is your figure less than greek

Is your mouth a little weak
When you open it to speak   

Are you smart?
But dont change a hair for me

Not if you care for me
Stay little valentine stay
Each day is valentines day
Is your figure less than greek

Is your mouth a little weak
When you open it to speak
Are you smart?
But dont you change one hair for me

Not if you care for me
Stay little valentine stay
Each day is valentines day

Song by Alice Fredenham
Britain Got Talent

Wednesday, July 09, 2014

ummi, a new space.

it must be work and commitment
and the pressure of datelines
to keep the company happy and free

the suffering is rather slow
but now taking its toll

and we agree for a leaner pace
for she can still work from home
and get to office as necessary
as agreed only a day a week....

so she can stay at home
to see the two growing
and honestly i think that's never easy
with the abundance of energy
the two willing to let go.

but to her
stay with the two is everything
for me
as long as it helps, let it be....

.................... dienn.

Tuesday, July 08, 2014

just wonder

i just wonder
if you had switched vocation
from low building to the tallest tower
or you go there for one off assignment.

and what ever you do
feel your own heart beat
firstly put a bit of trust
on adventures once it is set

i know
if it's repetitive routines
it will take you to brink of bore

but dear
lighten up you heart
for a man is watching
with love that never die...

................. dienn

Monday, July 07, 2014

when the sky is wet

i remember such nights
as nights expand beyond sight
of never ending feel

as we count numbers
adding one to another
for easy calculation of joy

and we never let it off
as happiness spreads
to the boundary of time

yes the joy
swimming through the night
holding hands through the waves
as bodies were splashed wet

and as the sky share
the moment of joy
it opens a little
to let go the little drops
of never ending wetness
of sensuous lips
of a wet sky.........

.................... dienn

Sunday, July 06, 2014

the lines of beauty.

remember the black dress
once worn in black night
to create distinctiveness
of form and flesh

however long ago
on rewind,  it is still fresh
as if a minute ago
on readiness for a tango

i remember the lines
of straights and curves
as much as i wish to see
as far as she allowed it be

as the curvy line turns
just a little bit more
i will not let it burns
for a sight i adore

as i rewind memories
over depth of nights
blinking a little, testing reality
so it wont shake off, the beauty

of distinctiveness, of form and flesh
of needing hearts
a swim of ecstasy
over love, a never ending feel.

....................... dienn

Saturday, July 05, 2014

the large butterflies

these few days, as if celebrating
rather large butterflies, came visiting
their wings, very much black and white
their appearance on fasting month, almost perfect
and surprisingly, they came at night.
exciting and fun, to lienn and rienn.

i googled, looking for any match
and yes, i found the name.......
a lovely name, combining both
lienn and eliss in a cute way.

It must be the changing weather,
that these butterflies had to come out
with the rather large wings, they flutter
but rather sad, they emerge just to pass out.

Then i recalled the recent happenings
as Kuala Kangsar mourned the departure of a King
and thousands butterflies came around too
some with gold wings.....

---------------------- dienn

Thursday, July 03, 2014

a little pasar malam

near the entrance
of the "new village" of before
as I looked to the left
from Gerik to Ipoh.

The entrance is hooked on
with development tone
a tall building, a new house
getting rid of the old tag
a new village before and aged later
- surprising connection.

and there was that little happening,
a lively pasar malam.

........................ dienn

Wednesday, July 02, 2014

counting one two three

i love her spirit, in trying out
honestly, i dont expect too much
for lienn to last to the end
as expected, fasting is only half time.

with spirit so high
she will get to the table first
calling everyone quick
and she recites doa with smiling eyes....

as she holds the dates
she will say, one for ayah
one for ummi, one for lienn
and one for adik..........

................... dienn

Tuesday, July 01, 2014

feeling tired and bored

what can i say, my dear
smile wide be happy
you going up and down
coming home almost at night

it's modern life
as we juggle home and work
so just absorb it all
until nothing is hurting
and we come out strong.

a quiet moment
with the loved ones
will sooth it all
of boredom
of tiresomeness
of sorrow.

there is joy
in hardship
as we achieve goals
one after another.

smile wide, be happy....
i wonder if there is anything i can do
to help a person to draw lines
over the blackest of canvas
to form pictures of happy faces
as we swim through
as we glide through
as we walk through
over a wet pavement..............

come out and watch the sky
so blue at times, so cloudy sometimes
be brave to feel the first drop of rain
and stay a bit longer to let the body wet

Then we will stay safe......

then look at the plants and flowers too
because they talk in silence
for eyes to see, for hearts to feel
open your beautiful lips and smile
forget the tough days, be happy.

and i am always there to see........
dont worry.................................

........................... dienn