Sunday, March 30, 2014


buat pertama kali
aku mendengar suaramu

sambil menongkat dagu
aku terpaku 


Saturday, March 29, 2014

just teasing.

............................................. dienn.

Friday, March 28, 2014

in white feeling fresh

white remains
as the essence of purity

memory lane

//// dienn.

Thursday, March 27, 2014


huh, i wouldn't know
but i guess i would just stand
and shake
and clap
and click
to accompany you singing.


Wednesday, March 26, 2014

It's A Brand New Day

It's A Brand New Day

Leave back all your worries and troubles of yesterday,
Make yourself a silent promise to make today a better day. 
Now my dear friend, a brand new day lays ahead of you,
Face it with pride, because it is a gift and is totally new. 
May all your goals and ambitions for the day be set,
I wish you have an amazing day and a night without regrets.
Good morning buddy. Have a grand day! 

poem by wishafriend 

.... dienn.
it's seven thirty dear
where are you, I wonder.

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

different shade of purple

a colour
between red and blue

a crimson dye
obtained from some molluscs
used for fabric
worn by emperor
and senior  magistrate
in ancient Rome.

shade of purple

shade of purple

memory lane

////////// dienn.

Monday, March 24, 2014

Rationality, just in case.

how does she feel,
if he lashes out
if he turns out really mean
playing out full force
letting every shred of secrets
of thousand years long keeping.

would there be hatred?
that calls for perpetual revenge,
and he wouldn't think of the possibility
not even a tiny bit
not even when rationality goes down the drain.

he will remain like yesteryears
that he never play ransom
that he is never hostile
he wont kill anyone
he tries not to hurt people.
he had swallowed bitterness
as he walks down the lane.

and he is fully aware
that he had been keeping the window open
a channel dedicated to a special friend
for a walk through
as life captures colour of rainbow 
through rain, thunder and sunshine.

and he never close the little window,
a channel.

............. dienn/

Sunday, March 23, 2014

feeling nice


memory lane

Saturday, March 22, 2014

congrats and get well

shall i begin

the brother, soon having a new child
and may the "new" family finds real happiness
and hoping Ik* and Z**** hug and love their new little one
and may F*** walk through happily.....

the other brother, get well soon.
as health, happiness all wrapped in one,
for better.

the little brother, soon would-be wedding,
may both handle it cool
a new and purposeful life

and you, for being able to cope with many roles
a wife, a mother, an employee and a student.
and you really need to smile more.... :)

Good Luck
have a nice weekend.

--------------------- dienn.

Friday, March 21, 2014


a sip

memory lane

Thursday, March 20, 2014

to turn back.

It goes by many names
in timeliness of lives.
call it archives, call it historical facts, call it past happenings.

Still the toughest point to ponder
is always about making sense of the whole thing.

I cant paint a picture better than nature,
my blue is always skewed towards purple
my reasoning can sometime borders absurdity
and for that I put myself less than perfect.

on an factual plateau,
I could never harm you even a little,
even if I could be misconstrued as being BAD.
so don't worry,

you recovered fast admittedly
you have settled down
probably better than what could have been
you will continue through the process
with many responsibilities in your bare hands,

to this far, things are alright
therefore syukur, alhamdulillah, thank God, Amin.

and of course now you can cook better
...... :)  beyond ayam kicap
and beyond kowteau upgrade
and make food licking good

and set  your dream right.
and see the dream through

and be happy....

It's not easy too on my part at the beginning
the worst is the lingering guilt feeling
for allowing another to go through desolate phase
while I was then coping through an unprecedented journey
and it took a number of years to sooth guilt feeling
and making the new journey workable..........

Yes, of course we keep looking back
to understand and give meanings to happenings.

and lastly
you know anything about GST?

............ dienn.

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

letters and meanings

and today I am looking at meanings
within letters

AM - amplitude modulation
BM - bahasa melayu
CM - chief minister
DM - deutsche mark
EM - effective micro organisms
FM - frequency modulation
GM - general manager

they all have meanings
and the list can go on and on....

.... dienn


Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Ransom on lives

to hold
on something precious,
- a secret,
bringing lives into chaos
as humanity
sinks to the bottom of sanity.

a delicate sabotage of recent 370 flight,
viewed as package of strategies,
to tilt equilibrium,
on economic and security scales,
on egoistic venture too,
over blue water or red land......

and can the distinction appear clear
of economy, politics, and personal pursuit
to wipe all clean for survival.
I wouldn't know....

But my dear
I read what you wrote
over what you had been through.
Now that we are following certain Routes
in a way identical, and yet different.

It would be easy to let in
elements of remorse and vengeance
in routes we are taking.
But for safety of many
shall we let past be past
however bitter it could be.

For not letting myself be known after so many years,
beyond what you already knew
and what I had shared
however little, my dearest friend
- feelings, minds, and thoughts.
I seek apology, sorry...., if that is forever necessary

There were crossroads I had come across
and routes I had taken
that were not all sweet and rosy.
Believe me, we are in similar route now,
to be thankful with journey we are in
and the future that lies ahead.
from One and Only we should seek blessings.

to keep revisiting the past
may cause needless pain and sadness
but there are lessons all over
if we choose to do so........
and what I wrote and will write
which connects past, present and future
are not  meant to be hurting,
in fact to ensure some sense of sanity
Realism in the world we are living in.....
breaking dreams into some degree of reality.
both bearable and manageable
as we get on with friendship.

I can assure you
that I had never play ransom on lives.....

.................................... dienn.

Monday, March 17, 2014

The list

I wouldn't argue with your list,
and for the moment
I will settle with a shorter list

a husband to Ummi
a father to lienn and rienn
a brother to the rest
a son to Mum and Dad
a fierce boss of a few companies....
a good cook for fish head curry
and a poor singer
(trying hard to sing Adele's - someone like you)

... dienn.

Sunday, March 16, 2014


We were at the edge of time
collecting dots and put them on canvas
and some dots converge making bigger dots
in the midst of laughters.

But the two were talking
in language they know best
and they laughed too
on a different storyline.

oh rienn, oh lienn.

/ dienn.

Saturday, March 15, 2014


It's the voice    
within me
crying it loud

will you spread
the bounty and fruits
and share to the vastness
of limiting sorrow.


Friday, March 14, 2014


Refraining myself,
a second longer,
staying a step further,
brushing aside
the probability of standing side by side
or wishing you good morning
when it's becoming unbearable
to step into another level
of real friendship
no mask, no restraint.

..... Dienn....

Thursday, March 13, 2014


pictures can bring back
past to presence

with a swift swing
as clouds collide
thunderous sky
lightning spears
deep into longing heart.

.... me

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

ever changing ecosystem

I thought about it often
as we delved into change management
that we were quite choosy.

Most changes are natural
reacting on new inputs and expectations,
on ever changing ecosystem.

Over reacting could just
push us out of the environment,
out of the business ecosystem...

So we play it natural
like  a tree in a forest of trees.
We nudge a little
not hurting neighbours.
We may also give hands
to help out other friends.

It's totally different
when we are embarking on
a new business adventure......

That's when the true form
of change management takes place
all the steps
all the way............

....... dienn.

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

the sista

and she added one more
to  her own train

so we had fun
about a doctor needing another.......

she can still count the number
and has not exceed the sum of her fingers


Monday, March 10, 2014


satu warna

satu ingatan


Sunday, March 09, 2014

MH370 to Beijing

It's sad
very sad.
a tragedy
of 227 passengers
and 12 crews


Saturday, March 08, 2014


the pretence
will be stripped naked
for public preview

the scrutiny
will not take a dime
for awkward scar

and I will aim the ball
straight to the bottom of hypocrisy
of black within white

... dienn.

Friday, March 07, 2014

looking in looking out

the reflections
looking in looking out
of existence
caught in essence
within timeline....

I took a step
looking in and  looking out
putting things in layers
within a web of permanence

and I am drawing
a sword of sort
as I look deep in
without reaching out
as I grab the last tread
of reflection.

and as I sigh
holding on to double ply
saying I should do more
forever more

I am still looking in
at the depth of love
that will envelop
everything else

... dienn

Sunday, March 02, 2014


i wonder
why album
and it's content
stay far up in the sky
in the clouds