Wednesday, January 29, 2014

sweet elegance

radiance of soul


Monday, January 27, 2014

Tak sempat

a story about someone

sekali masa kecil,
tak sempat balik
dan terlepas tengah jalan
meleleh kebawah
betis hingga kaki.

sampai rumah
tentulah kena marah.

...... dienn

Saturday, January 25, 2014

Its never easy being a Mother

Being a mom is never easy
with husband and children around
with what society had accepted over years
the role, the responsibility perceived as norms
crowned as queen of the house, the central pillar

I see that in ummi
and I feel you are moulding yourself too
into a role you never play before

But one thing for sure
the child will always look for  Mom,
for milk and comfort.
day and night.

... dienn
( Today i woke up early and walked outside.... i felt very cold.. almost shivering)

Friday, January 24, 2014

The other day

I was writing about Mdm I and Mr Z the other day
and was sure of their early commitments
in settling down
and the deviation that comes along much later

When the younger one was really very young
and he couldn't construct sentence of five words yet.

Now the younger one is a lot bigger
and one thing I observe,
he is cool as ever.

And for whatever that gets in
and remodel his thinking and perceptions
that I wouldn't know for sure.

But wait a while
when they, both of them mature
they will definitely appreciate
what is life all about.

And I do sense the transformation
that Madam I or H had gone through.
Its a process some would identify as "reborn"

.... dienn

Thursday, January 23, 2014


Once we treat life in clusters of,
25, 30, 35, 40, 45, 50, 55, 60, 65, 70
we can put proper plan
and put down reasonable targets
and work out several options

But again play along with pragmatism
and restructure the whole approach
so that life has meaning and tolerable.

... dienn

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

kurus atau gemuk

exercise boleh di mana-mana
walau atas katil.

----- dienn

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

lienn wearing telekung

Knowing a child has the capacity to learn
at a rate far more than adults
we start off early with Lienn
on what she should know and learn

and its nice to see Lienn able to recite
a short surah, a few sirah, a few stories.

and now she has to join maghrib
with me and ummi.

and she looks so sweet in telekung.

.... dienn.

Monday, January 20, 2014

Connecting the dots.

a river and its tributaries network
When I said business like a river
flowing down to the sea
joined by its tributaries
I really mean it.

It was years ago since we started off
venturing into pharmacy outlets
Now we begin to lay down the connectivity
with a friend, a researcher on herbal medicine
with another friend who really has green fingers
then river and its connectivity begin to take shape

As we move on seriously on pharmaceutical industry,
I just wonder how precious life is to some
willing to put aside a big sum to stay healthy
and as herbal medicine begins to pick popularity
much bigger than its early days
we rolled out capital and reaped in profits

Then memories keep coming back
what arwah opah used to talk about ulam
except we convert ulam to capsules

and that is connectivity my dear za.

..... dienn.

Friday, January 17, 2014

Was it you

I was sitting in a car
gambar hiasan
looking to left side
then I saw a car
driving slowly on the left.

Then I said to myself
that must be you......

the place was KJ.


Thursday, January 16, 2014

Ummi imposing her standard

It's a slow process
that can easily go unnoticed
how a child is moulded
about boundaries
about orderliness
about good behaviour
and for most about self esteem.

and I do notice
how ummi is imposing her standards
on our two little girls.

..... dienn

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

the freedom

horse riding
as you mentioned once
its about freedom

of speed

- dienn

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Fish versus Chicken

It's the world she will live in later
which preferences she will get stuck with
which inclination she will cling to

of fish versus chicken.

for the moment
she adapts well to both
with no real divisive preference

our little lienn.

Monday, January 13, 2014

business chain

There is a story in itself
while defining a particular business venture.
It is almost like a river
coming down from highland
falling down through falls and rapids
widening as it move seawards
meandering all the way to the sea.

a particular business has its own roadmap
or a river so to speak

Look at rivers...
then we understand what's business chain all about.

.... dienn.

Sunday, January 12, 2014

where does it begin.

of many things
colour is very funny
while she is lavish
as she sketches and puts colour
replicating the true world
she somehow maintains personal preference
as to colour of her own dress.

Lienn is fairly sharp
defining the boundary of colour
belonging to ayah and ummi too.

but rienn is too young
to be choosy
she just loves crying and yelling.

.... dienn.

Friday, January 10, 2014

Seizing the Moment

So much of our time is preparation,
so much is routine
and so much is retrospect,
that the path of each man's genius contracts itself to a very few hours.

- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Thursday, January 09, 2014

Womanly Qualms

When I go rowing on the lake,
   I long to be a man;
I’ll give my Sunday frock to have
   A callous heart like Dan.

I love the ripple of the waves
   When gliding o’er the deep,
But when I see the cruel ours,
   I close my eyes and weep;

For there are cat-fish in our lake,
   And I am filled with dread,
Lest Don should strike a ****-fish
   Upon its tender head.

How would you like it if, some day
   An air-ship passing by,
Should flap its cruel, thoughtless oars
   And knock you in the eye?

My life would be one long regret
   If, for my pleasure vain,
I caused a harmless little fish
   An hour of needless pain.

And if Dan’s heavy oars should cause
   One little fish to die,
I’d never, never dare to look
   Smoked herring in the eye!

Ellis Parker Butler

Wednesday, January 08, 2014

rienn menyelinap

agaknya itu sebab
rienn sering menyelinap
bila dahaga.

Tuesday, January 07, 2014

sleepless nite

when you mentioned about staying at home
and yet working
over weekends
I begin to look at ummi....

I know she has shouldered 
more than what I can

It's about being patient
to go through hardship
without qualms.

So in the end, success in life
requires deep understanding
what's there to achieve.

..... Dienn.

Monday, January 06, 2014

The choice of routes

I wish them luck
as both decided to deviate
from what they had agreed once.

I know the kids will understand
that they will not fall as victims.

Ina and Fara should not compare
and probe weaknesses.
It's the strength that will make us
a lot stronger.

You too should by now
understand about the complexity of life
and relationship.

At times we all hinged.

.. dienn.

Sunday, January 05, 2014

academic pursuit.

Its true grit
to spice up urge
while filling up new found space
within the boundary of family life.

If the urge is strong
to bring along academic pursuit
with hubby and eliss
then by all means

go go go and do it.

Friday, January 03, 2014


You did nothing wrong,
It's only me
getting stuck
to an arranged marriage

While you are heading
towards a bright horizon
I am struggling to inch my way
juggling between happiness and responsibility

My journey is long and sad.

But darling
it's alright 

It's my fault
It's never hers or yours......
May god bless us all.


Thursday, January 02, 2014

True Love

True love
 isn’t about being inseparable;
 it’s about two people
 being true to each other
 even when they are separated.