familiarity

we keep coming back

to some sense of familiarity

to childhood days

through growing up process

in a circle of family

dienn

Welcoming October

I take the measure

safeguarding the treasure

of  me, children and her

I recall the days

as story bears

of some soothing inlays

I see future in multi forms

family, business, community in tandem

bracing ourselves for the worst that might come

It's the threat that's looming

out of political turmoil

grabbing the essence of fair play

who knows it could be late to say sorry

It's the community, truly in great danger

disobeying rules, feeding anger

plunging souls with damned dagger.

And business is dragging its foot

the need to put eggs in many bowls

to ensure relevance to needy souls.

constructions, health services and plantations

remaining as core, requiring aggressions

overlapping tourism as sustainable union.

for me and for you my dear,

it's the direction,  ought to be clear

easing tensions, actions all in full gear

I pray to Allah

may future be bright Insya Allah

for blessed life, full of Barokah

............................. dienn

she said no to maid

It has been years

and ummi never change
she keeps holding the fort
no maid, no maid. no maid.

the life becomes very tight
for her to see it through
racing up in the morning
going up in the evening
the two of us, for the two girls.

I know
she is queen of the house
what she wish to shoulder
no one else should bother....

I am wondering
if, it would not take too long
before, she quits working
and stays at home as queen
and am I, the king?..... :)






.................................dienn

el and q

the two should be very close
as bamboo and riverside......
you may want to spell it different
but i would settle for iss at the back
rather than q followed by isy

so in a way both sounds similar
the elder pronounced bold and strong
the younger sounds very feminine
with softer sound of el at the front

I can see bond building up.
I can guarantee she regards el as her own
little sister staying with auntie......


I know the bond will tie
beyond the time we know...
and about the other two sisters
the blood in them, will bind.






.................................. uncle dienn

of the two

i wonder

how much they learn
from one another

of rules and regulations
of necessity for good behaviour
of having fun in life
of dream and make belief world
of staying as a family

i have seen lienn
playing the role of big sister
taking care of little sister
in more ways than we thought possible

i have seen in them
the level of tolerance
as they play and have fun

but lienn waste no time
in correcting her little sister
as any kak long would normally do
even suap adik makan..........
even marah kalau sepah2.....


I thought lienn is a little bit cerewet....







................................ dienn
tomorrow: she did it once

a large bird

I love the scene around the other home
with space so big, with trees so tall

and a little stream passing through
with water so cold and clear,
I can see little fish swimming through
and always dragonflies will dart on repeated moves

I have seen that large bird many times
Lienn and rienn loves the sight
very beaky, very loud.
burung kenyalang.. hornbill

and over there
i will be the only cook
during occasional weekend retreats
the other three can rest and enjoy...
wrapped in sights and sounds.
sweet and angelic.



..................................dienn
tomorrow: how they differ

bangi home and the other home

one offers convenience  

work, life and recreation.

the other offers space
sweeter air, quietness and nature.

we love both homes
as both support each other
providing some form of sustainability
reciprocity.

two homes
two distinct character.









dienn.........................

Off

it's nice to be off
out of the tense world of WORK
and get down to the real WORLD
of earth, sea and river
of buluh, pulut and palas
of lemang, ketupat and rendang
of pelita raya
lightening each corner of hearts
full of blessings
understanding giving, needing
and forgiving.....

I am again trying
in a familiar setting
of my very own roots
back home, my own kampung.

.... dienn

Surviving

some live to survive another day

some care less what tomorrow has in store

then we pity why the poor mother

having to work and leave the poor son

and people of different backgrounds

may wonder and curse

as if the son is left to die

Then maternal love 

is caught again 

by the big chain of survival

unless 

people curse less

but care more.

____dienn____

bubur lambuk

Yea yea yea

we all grew differently

in different environments

with different family bond

with different exposure

with different experience

Even in puasa month

i feel the differences in food 

when ummi so used to different bubur lambuk.

adding bits of meat

while I am so used to prawns as adds-on

but for the kids

we allow both versions

to be prepared and served

so that they know the intertwined roots

of their own parents.

dienn...................

next: fitrah

We went out

One of the many days
that ummi shines with joy
as we get on the car
the whole family.

It's shopping day
to join the big crowd
as Raya is nearing
allowing lienn and rienn
learn about celebrating.
getting into the mood of Eid.




,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, dienn





next: sayang

she joined once....

we let her had a feel
to go through 8 raka'ats
but she just did Two
and for the rest of time
she ventured around
with peers, her age...

and back home
she would tell everyone
that she had  new friends.

Oh lienn...






..................... dienn

the cousins came

everybody came
as a ritual of sort
changing place
so families always in accord.

Lienn is not the eldest
but she played the real host
showing cousins her books and toys
and rienn just tag along.

It's the ritual
of getting together
putting them as pals
now and forever.

We were there
wondering how future would fare
for all of them,
our younger generation.




..................... dienn

the large butterflies

these few days, as if celebrating

butterfly

rather large butterflies, came visiting
their wings, very much black and white
their appearance on fasting month, almost perfect
and surprisingly, they came at night.
exciting and fun, to lienn and rienn.

i googled, looking for any match
and yes, i found the name.......
a lovely name, combining both
lienn and eliss in a cute way.

It must be the changing weather,
that these butterflies had to come out
with the rather large wings, they flutter
but rather sad, they emerge just to pass out.

Then i recalled the recent happenings
as Kuala Kangsar mourned the departure of a King
and thousands butterflies came around too
some with gold wings.....





---------------------- dienn

counting one two three

i love her spirit, in trying out

dates

honestly, i dont expect too much
for lienn to last to the end
as expected, fasting is only half time.

with spirit so high
she will get to the table first
calling everyone quick
and she recites doa with smiling eyes....

as she holds the dates
she will say, one for ayah
one for ummi, one for lienn
and one for adik..........





................... dienn

Go, turn and turn.

It's Masjid Bandar Baru Bangi on the right

my home

It's Az-zahrah on the left
and soon a petrol kiosk

Upon the traffic light
I will take left
and maintaining right

I cant speed
because soon I will take heed
for a good right.

and after a few swerve
I will reach a place
I call home.

and always to be greeted by Lienn
with a kiss on my hand.
and Rienn is too young to care.

Ummi will reach home first
I will get home last.


and further up
is a place where I sweat it out
over weekends
with friends
playing like little kids
counting stroke after stroke
and always on the lookout
where would the white ball land to.









dienn.........................................
[ next:  With a robe of saffron hue ]

Ajam - target, kpi

its Bagan Ajam

but how's the young couple doing?

wonder if they can beat 

that "satu bulan je kosong" target.

dienn..................

Balancing

I guess along the way,  kids will balance out

when to share

and when to stay alone and private

i have seen that in lienn and rienn

dienn......................................................-

the sista

ouch
and she added one more
to  her own train

so we had fun
about a doctor needing another.......


she can still count the number
and has not exceed the sum of her fingers






//Dienn

Its never easy being a Mother

Being a mom is never easy
with husband and children around
with what society had accepted over years
the role, the responsibility perceived as norms
crowned as queen of the house, the central pillar

I see that in ummi
and I feel you are moulding yourself too
into a role you never play before

But one thing for sure
the child will always look for  Mom,
for milk and comfort.
day and night.



... dienn
( Today i woke up early and walked outside.... i felt very cold.. almost shivering)