Can I still keep them?

There are still items of the past that I keep.

Can i still keep them?

hmmm......



dienn...........

biru dan hijau

aku masih ingat

fotomu
biru diatas
dan hijau dibawah






dienn...............................

port dickson

remember you went there
with your part time employer

and you introduce yourself

i kerja partime kat situ"

lagi, lagi....



.... they were expecting surprises..
.... or sensational news.................




dienn........................

filipina

abang,
ni dok terima sms iklan
dari filipina lagi ni...

....)))




........................ dienn

Eh

abang dah makan?
-------
abang makan apa?
-------

eh, kita macam laki bini ye abang
-------



dienn...............

Lain

she noticed something  

the way he said things

the manja and feeling

between sabah and here.

she said kalau abang kat Sabah, abang lain tau..

dienn........................

what is best?

mathematics taught us about right answer,

but there could be many ways 

to get to the right answer, all are right.

if the question evolves around what's best,

it is not fair to handle it as mathematics,

because life with it's multiplicity

would not be in congruence  

with simple equation.

if discussion goes around Love

then the yardstick is the Heart

and Feelings that come along.

Some  will be forgotten as time goes
but Love is not like chipsmore
easily melt and soften

It stays , never erased.
but some may question
what's worth of such love
what can it do

a maturing pain

such love cant be measured in gains
unfair to put it in a scale
and determine of it's superlative
good better best......

it's a maturing pain
that's what i think
it will stay
forever, ever....
the love, and that's the best for us.
it hurts, it's painful
it's maturing pain

....................... me.

I call, I sleep

It must be memorable to you    

i call, i sleep

but I cant remember a thing
because soon after I called
I fell into the depth of sleep
and you heard the hissing sound

of a cobra swelling
of an eagle soaring high
of beautiful fish swimming slow
of a man sleeping...................

But I remember why the urge to call,
I woke up early that morning
then there was that urge to call
to hear just your sweet voice
and you waited for 15 minutes.
and the man still sleeping.

urghh....





dienn............................
next: ummi, the mother

making the blog __ p r i v a t e __

I googled to find how

to make a blog private
the info I read shows
that blog can be made really secret

The blogger needs to screen
and choose particular reader
if it's between dienn and lienn
Dienn needs lienn's email address

I suppose there could be a stumbling block
as Lienn has no email or facebook
just in case Lienn already had one
she would have it written down
the email address somewhere..

It cant be ordinary email
i guess it must relate to blogger
the email lienn would sign in as user.....

I know if lienn wish to share
she would just let me know
and if her email is real secret
she can just put somewhere
for a day or two then delete

I know lienn is good at erasing
I am good at highlighting
But I will not hurt lienn in anyway
for lienn needs a space to grow....



.................dienn

the little belt and sway

Many times

in quiet moments
i recall
the little belt

as you dance, swing
and sway

to the tune of
Michael Buble
under very soft light.

I really love
the sight and the song
and the lovely sway
of Michael Buble........

and you.....





............... dienn

Her

such a sweet young lady  

glides with grace and always pleasant
her smile will warm hearts
a very likeable character... definite.

I recognise her voice
even if it's a low whisper
or when she said as short as "ahh.."
or the little giggles she let out in happy mood.

If I can only see her hair
If I can only see her nose
If I can only see half the face
If I can only see the wet lips
If I can only see the beautiful neck
I know for sure it's her

Her

that I know so well
beyond the face and smile
and I can feel her heart beating
and I touch the soul and cant let go
even a thousand miles away....
even now....

Her

I remember
her youthful jovial manner
her stories about herself and family
her studies and her worries
her likes and dislikes
her health and migraine
her face with glasses and lenses
her sweet face with tudung
her beauty with hair loose
her exquisite look with hair split into two
her lovely singing talent
her confident oratory skills
her cries and sobs.
and all the little moments that we shared.


I respect situation we are in
I am happy to see her setting in
in a definite route, a happy destiny
so we can pray for  happiness and eternal joy


dienn
___________________________
and we agree
that the journey is hard and long.

Toy of younger days

we remember toys

that we had in younger days

which come in many shapes and sizes

i remember the day of joy

when you show me one.

that newly bought toy

in such beautiful happy tone

as anyone else in such occasion 

you are quite possesive

of your new possession

but i was glad and love to tease

that you at least wish to show and declare

The colour is natural and nice

not too expensive I guess

It was such a beauty

as you hold, show and caress 

and that toy can move

and produces sound

I know the toy moves slow

and the sound is soft and sweet

i love to see you so happy

as anyone else with any new toy

and i know you love the toy

as you hold gently and kiss lovingly

I told you 

to keep your new toy well

so you know where to find and play
so no one can grab and steal

you love the toy

of younger days.....

.......................... dienn

sikecil lena

waktu sikecil terlena  

sikecil lena

mereka masih berjaga
membelai api cinta
dalam samar-samar lampu

dalam dua-dua saling memerlu
siang dan malam
tidak ada ungkapan
mampu mengurai
dua jiwa bertaut
bertahun

dan setiap situasi
hanya mereka berdua ketahui
rasa, jiwa dan hati.




dienn............................

sayang berpanjang

aku tidak mampu

sayang berpanjang

untuk menghalang

rindu terus memanjang

mungkin kau mengejek

dengan bibir melentik

sambil berkata.. eleh.

................... dienn.

Eleh...

masih ingat belum lupa.

mana mungkin aku lupa

"tanda"

letak duduk tanda
dua yang ketara
dan satu yang kecil terselit sudut bibir

dan aku kekal terasa
segalanya bak semalam
saat bulan mengundur
sebelum bintang jadi pudar

aku juga ada dua hampir serupa
seimbang, sejengkal jaraknya
namun ada lagi di sana sini
berselerak bagai sebuah lukisan akstrak.

dan ingatan aku
tentang tanda-tanda
kekal abadi selamanya.



.................... dienn.

i sing a song

it was morning.

i woke up early
i bet you woke up late

i let you hear a song
husky version of milik siapa
i wish i could sing better







,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, dienn...............

something happened september 2011

the devastation

tough year

of feel , helplessness
and anger
engulfing all things

while I
suffered and succumbed
to the knots and ties
nothing else.

Darling

can i kiss you
in the middle of night

as moon shy away
behind clouds

can i hold your breath
for a short while
as we dance together
holding
caressing.







........... dienn.

Out of many

Out of many I had seen
A few stand out, really memorable

One being one of the earliest
as both you walked through
holding gadgets for the beach
carrying camera to capture memories

Another one was a bit later
for me to remember
as a person with character

The other one was different
with setting so familiar
telling the whole truth, not a liar






.......... dienn.

Can I borrow your eraser.

You remember schooldays

when we forgot things
and we whisper to our neigbour
Can I borrow your eraser,
Can I borrow your ruler.


Out of schooling
the old habit comes back
not of borrowing eraser
but the act of erasing


I wonder why erase
your thoughts behind the three,
of two and group
of song and melody
of mic and guitar

Because I read it many times
I remember every line
of your thoughts.....




......... dienn,