Cengkerik

Weekend retreat

is always fun for the children
as they learn the many sounds
coming from trees and shrubs

and I really have to create stories
about birds and insects
as if I know all
when they ask

"tu bunyi apa ayah?"


dienn.....................

Tak pi ke?

Sunday today

the last day for MAHA
if you miss it
you need to wait
for the next two years


dah pi?



.................... dienn

Lienn dan rienn

Lienn and Rienn

seronok sangat
bila buka gift box
Ummi pun jenguk
heran apa yang bising.

Ayah baru balik...




dienn........................

again and again

I was stuck

with sudden rain shrieking
with a slight flash flood
and as rain got heavier
cars became slower....



dienn.................................

Journeys

of all the journeys I did

throughout the world
ranging from the most modern
right up to the most rural
I keep asking....

what is best?



dienn

cameron highlands

I always feel that Cameron Highlands is in Perak

because it is easily accessed from Tapah or Simpang Pulai
but it was decided long time ago, that place should go to Pahang

Cameron Highlands is always cool
but there lies the greatest danger
when rain comes down heavy
when the dam is full
then water has to be released
at a controlled rate....
Then there would be flood downstream .........

and if we wish to explore further
and solve it once for all
the situation has to be handled hard and firm
as TPM had said.....



..................... dienn

twisters

of late....

twisting wind ran wild
over Kedah and Klang
removing roofs
uplifting trees
worrying souls.


..................... dienn
(we call it puting beliung, I know beliung as
on of the traditional carpentry tool. Puting is nipple. Combining the two words gives totally
different thing..... twister, tornado.)

eh... pandai jugak ye

Kau terus terang

dengan exam sekolah
tapi kau sering sorok
result di Gombak I sana
Kini kau tidak malu lagi
untuk share semuanya
di Gombak II
walau tersepit
antara jaga dan lena

Tahniah..


dienn............................

biru dan hijau

aku masih ingat

fotomu
biru diatas
dan hijau dibawah






dienn...............................

Kg Pulau Meranti

Then I wonder

how an island stays on land
when not a sight of sea around
with modern and old
staying in union
allowing old to renew
as colours and height
chase one another
over buildings and houses

and I love the setting
of rejuvenation of sorts
sandwiched between Puchong and Cyberjaya
for its existence will be unveiled
as it crawls along the toughest line...
of identity




............................ dienn.

Describing

how would i describe that night

as we inch our way
into it's depth
and time slowed a little
stretching out feelings
and at the end I asked
"how do you feel tonight"






..................... dienn

Lienn menjengket

aku nampak dari jauh

lienn menjengket
ambil sponge
cuci pinggan

dan terdengar
banyaknya buih ummi





................................ dienn

circus reopen

it took only one MAN

to bare the male animal
and scrutinized details
right to the basic essence
what's known as DNA......









dienn..........................................

Circus again

are we going to throw peanuts

or rotten meat instead

to the dominant male.

He loves the circus

for he can jump and shout

to let others see his bravery

and Shafee is never amused

today he is going to give another kick

at the central issue, the backside.

a brutal dissection of lies and truths.

.............................. dienn

JDT a craze

how things changed

over years of his involvements

bringing a new brand of bravado

to football, a game loved by many

now stadium is always full

fans of old and young throng in thousands

to see the sheer fun of game

and to see the antics of TMJ.

We were with him

a number of times

on adventure of common interest

He is both tough and fun.

.............................. dienn.
But they lost last night, sad...

circus

a circus of animals

strong dominant male
overpowering another younger one
male, not female.

The dominant male loves the show
for whatever he has done
and ask everyone to come and see
and he just says what's wrong with it
he never run away
he never fight back
it's consent.

and he hired 14 males/females in black robes
to be by his side, to tell his version of story.


So the story goes
about a dominant male.


............................................. dienn

sayang

teguhi

suratan takdir ilahi
untuk yang pasti
kekal abadi

dalam pelukan cinta
sesaat tika kau sebut "iye"
waktu waktu ingin mengada
mengulas lalu mengulit dua jiwa
menyerah

ada dua cinta...,
cinta abadi
cinta suratan ilahi





dienn..................

Story of a friend

Eh Lxx, bila nak kawin    

Dad tengah interview calon2



what?




dienn..............................

Terharu...

Masih serupa

rasa yang menjelma

dari satu ucapan biasa

waktu beralih usia

setahun tinggalkan waktu muda

dengan catatan "with love"

dari seseorang tercinta......

dienn......................

hanya sekali

sering aku tatapi foto mu    

sering juga aku terubat rindu
selalunya foto mu nampak mengiring
hanya sekali mengadap kedapan penuh....


dienn....................

lienn and rienn

lienn will always be kaklong

in the way she behaves
and how she looks after rienn

and i have been observing
how she calls adik
in her ways



adiiiiiiiikkkkkk
adik
aaaaadikkk


adik sentiasa faham
cara kakak panggil
dalam bentuk
sayang, manja
marah, 
memujuk
mengarah
memaksa....



as long as they understand each other
it's alright with us.....




dienn..............................

crying...

once i heard you crying

before sun began appearing
when night met morning
when we stopped counting



.................. dienn

stretch out

how would one get up
to get set to new day
do you stretch your hands out
and say things like .... urghhhh.





dienn.....................

feeling it..

I only pour fuel into the little mini
and the bigger ones all by the professional 
because the rise is a bit sharp
I can now see the increase
of petrol as subsidy is slowly lifted




................. dienn

choices

to make life easy

and ours too
we choose the same colour
clothes for the two

they will look at each other
and they smile
because there is nothing to compare
and get jealous about....


and now they start to differ
what they like
because we impose less





dienn.......................

wonderful

And then I tell her as I turn out the light
I say, "My darling, you are wonderful tonight
Oh my darling, you are wonderful tonight"

port dickson

remember you went there
with your part time employer

and you introduce yourself

i kerja partime kat situ"

lagi, lagi....



.... they were expecting surprises..
.... or sensational news.................




dienn........................

filipina

abang,
ni dok terima sms iklan
dari filipina lagi ni...

....)))




........................ dienn

jejantas

that day, one pedestrian walkway
fell down, hitting a few cars
luckily no serious injury...........
over in johor bahru..............





.........................dienn

Eh

abang dah makan?
-------
abang makan apa?
-------

eh, kita macam laki bini ye abang
-------



dienn...............

Lain

she noticed something  

the way he said things

the manja and feeling

between sabah and here.

she said kalau abang kat Sabah, abang lain tau..

dienn........................

their first clear words

if I put melalak aside
and just hear the clear words
I can tell both differ
one chose mamamama...
the other chose dadadada...

their first clear words,,,



dienn........................

Haze

it's getting bad lately, sky is clear but we can see far, its hazy, its blurry. Kids will suffer in such weather condition if they play too long outside.



dienn

a code

I wonder who started declaring it first. Probably him or probably her. I guess both felt the same way, rasa semacam dalam perut dalam dada.......... then he started off with a note i.l.y.

its a code, that both understood so well for years.....

 dienn..............................

The fate1

we can never be sure

what lies far into the future

of what to become with  us

with numerous junctions and turns

put aside the two us first

look at someone close 

shall we refer them as Mr Z and Mdm F

and examine at the change of tide.

i cant claim i know more than you

i can only connect the little dots

that i gather from you

and other dots lying in the blue sky

There must answers somewhere
among the clouds over blue sky
among leaves in the most scary jungle
and probably at the finger tips, our very own.



................................. dienn

surprise

how would you feel

to open a surprise gift box

out of the blue

dienn....................

for her

for her

the little one

dienn......................................................

wind

lovely feeling

to be carried away by wind

and you,
take care
rest and sleep well
and definitely swallow the pills

get well soon

dienn

kelicap

a small bird

with long curvy beak

to push through flowers

to get to the nectar

for a sip

for longevity.

dienn.............................

a song

Way on down south,
Way on down south
London town





a potion of the song
you mentioned once





................................. dienn.

Sacrifice

It has deeper meaning
that goes beyond understanding
A tough thing
painful maturing
sacrificing
enduring
healing
rejoicing


selamat hari raya qurban.




.......................... dienn

dialogue

nak.........

ape?.......

entah.......

antah?

hmmm..................

lintah?

hmmm.................

lidah?

hmmm................

nipah?

hmmm................





......................... dienn.

white earlobes,

At the plantation
with rows of sawit

over in Teluk Intan
really a venture of true grit

It's the scale of investment
so large, scare me off earlier on
but as we scrutinise the business plan
the new adventure is just a slight deviation

There are other things within the plantation
thriving within the rows of palms
there are ferns and orchids
some i had never seen

and they are birds too
either small or large
and I love the sight of white earlobes
we call them ayam hutan.










dienn.........................

midnite

midnite
friday nite
i am thinking of you

dienn................

about love

there must be something special
that it stays and never go away
how can i say that's not real
for it sticks so hard, and it never sway........





................................ dienn
until today.

Welcoming October

I take the measure

safeguarding the treasure

of  me, children and her

I recall the days

as story bears

of some soothing inlays

I see future in multi forms

family, business, community in tandem

bracing ourselves for the worst that might come

It's the threat that's looming

out of political turmoil

grabbing the essence of fair play

who knows it could be late to say sorry

It's the community, truly in great danger

disobeying rules, feeding anger

plunging souls with damned dagger.

And business is dragging its foot

the need to put eggs in many bowls

to ensure relevance to needy souls.

constructions, health services and plantations

remaining as core, requiring aggressions

overlapping tourism as sustainable union.

for me and for you my dear,

it's the direction,  ought to be clear

easing tensions, actions all in full gear

I pray to Allah

may future be bright Insya Allah

for blessed life, full of Barokah

............................. dienn

house and the sea

Chalet : Perak

Chalet: Port Dickson

House, not chalet. - Tonle Sap Cambodia

we had invested quite a lot

in ecotourism by the river and sea

over in Perak, Manjong area.

we make it simple

to blend well with the surroundings

I had been to Port Dickson

and their chalets a bit too stark and bold

I had been to Cambodia

over there houses looked like chalet.

I had been to Philippine

where I formulated the whole idea 

as society gets too modern

people has to relearn

about life and nature

which some never feel before.

and that is the little story

about investing in nature

as we get deeper

into world we call modern.

......................dienn......................

she said no to maid

It has been years

and ummi never change
she keeps holding the fort
no maid, no maid. no maid.

the life becomes very tight
for her to see it through
racing up in the morning
going up in the evening
the two of us, for the two girls.

I know
she is queen of the house
what she wish to shoulder
no one else should bother....

I am wondering
if, it would not take too long
before, she quits working
and stays at home as queen
and am I, the king?..... :)






.................................dienn

mi segera.

It's one of those days....

that I played host well

with recipe done so cute

and it tasted so great 

mi segera 2 minit.

alang to them_________

                  

all around us

even ummi pun jebik

when i  mention

about a house in vastness of sawah padi

as my dream house

The house has to be of wood

very modest with minimal accessories

without aircond and fans

just wind to cool heat down.

with 

paddy growing everywhere

a source of life, 

with water all around

a source of life too

with sepat and puyu 

as a source of protein

we couldn't ask for more

and I will look for one.

dienn

The breath of our lives......

For the fact that I am not really into cars
I ended up owning a mini cooper
so small, so slight, yet can be so fast
but that accident, really thought me a lesson
at traffic light, it's wise to give extra second
just in case a crazy guy race-up through his red

I understand about their requirements
the process, the standards and all
on quality, i had been well exposed
during my days over land below the wind
teaming up a foreign company

with construction, plantations and health services
tourism, oil and gas as adds on
I wonder if I have the strength to retain some sense
on the ever demanding world of business.

I don't wish to fall as victim
of lavish interpretation of life
when extravagance nudge to a hole
of bottomless depth of craziness

I have seen it all in some friends
 forgetting that life is just temporary
neglecting the fact of needy souls
making companies where they are....

The fact that I continue writing
is to put some balance in the madhouse
as I give mind and soul, a healing
of brutality, and threats avalanche


I wanna stay cool and relax.
as quiet poet.... :)







........................... dienn.

cruising

At times

I hate water
for I can't swim

It's a lake

so large that they call sea

it's Tonle Sap
a place I have been to
and over there I felt in love
with the tourism at its best
blending setting of old and new
sustainability






dienn.................

what is best?

mathematics taught us about right answer,

but there could be many ways 

to get to the right answer, all are right.

if the question evolves around what's best,

it is not fair to handle it as mathematics,

because life with it's multiplicity

would not be in congruence  

with simple equation.

if discussion goes around Love

then the yardstick is the Heart

and Feelings that come along.

Some  will be forgotten as time goes
but Love is not like chipsmore
easily melt and soften

It stays , never erased.
but some may question
what's worth of such love
what can it do

a maturing pain

such love cant be measured in gains
unfair to put it in a scale
and determine of it's superlative
good better best......

it's a maturing pain
that's what i think
it will stay
forever, ever....
the love, and that's the best for us.
it hurts, it's painful
it's maturing pain

....................... me.

lienn performing

one of many nights

that we went out
and on that Saturday night
lienn was the reason

it was the night, lienn got up the stage
in her university for kids
one story telling followed by one dancing
we enjoyed every minute of it
and I saw tears at the corner
of ummi eyes...........she was so happy.
and lienn and her friends had fun

rienn wasnt able to see all
because she slept all the way through
in my arms, my steady strong arms
ehemm........

lienn's media uncle came along
with some other uncles and aunties
and with cousins too
the media uncle took video and did some editing
and the next weekend we had fun watching
with everyone else at grandma's place

lienn blushed a little bit...
malu-malu pulak........................


and by popular request
lienn did it all over again....
and grandma's house shook like theatre...






dienn......................................

el and q

the two should be very close
as bamboo and riverside......
you may want to spell it different
but i would settle for iss at the back
rather than q followed by isy

so in a way both sounds similar
the elder pronounced bold and strong
the younger sounds very feminine
with softer sound of el at the front

I can see bond building up.
I can guarantee she regards el as her own
little sister staying with auntie......


I know the bond will tie
beyond the time we know...
and about the other two sisters
the blood in them, will bind.






.................................. uncle dienn

LAKE HOUSE - life is not a book

lake house 

lake house

you didn't come  

i dont understand
something must have happened
I am sorry
I got two years
we can try again

no alex
its too late
it already happened
it didnt worked

dont give up on me kate
what about persuasion
you told me
they wait, they meet again
they have another chance

life is not a book alex
and it can be over in a second
i was having lunch with my mother at dally plaza
and a man was killed right in front of me
he died in my arms
and i thought
it cant just end like that
on valentine's day
and i thought about all the people who love him
waiting at home
will never see him again
and then I thought
what if there is no one
what if you live
your whole life
and no one is waiting
so i drove to the lake house
waiting for any kind of answer
and i found you....

and i let myself get lost
lost in this beautiful fantasy
with time stood still
but its not real alex
i have to learn live a life
that i got

please dont write anymore
dont try to find me
let me let you go



alex and kate





...................................... dienn

passing through, 3 levels

I have passed that junction so many times
Federal Highway that separates Kelana Jaya and Sunway
Sungai Way is somewhere near

The sight is marvellous
about traffic going through three levels
so high one on top the other
the overhead bridge looks steady
it won't scare timid driver like "her" away

I also passed a particular junction many times
a residential area between saujana putra and usj
where the old hill had been scrapped low and thin
but the name maintains its glorious height
so the name goes "putra height"

And of late I saw similar three levels too
but the overhead bridge is so slender
for train and traffic to pass through
Wonder if it sway on windy day
I am sure the timid driver isn't scared at all






dienn................................................

Lake House - favourite lines

there is someone

and it's a kind of a long distance relationship

how do you meet

Havent
story of my life

you kidding...

everything in a distance
everyone 
the man standing right in front of me
that want to marry me
am i pushed away


in the meantime one man i can never meet
him.. how i like to give my whole heart to

He must write one hell of a letter

hmm.. its nice.
safe.


kate and a friend





dienn................................

Il Mare

Il Mare, year 2000

a time transcending love

apart in time, able to communicate

through a letter box

It was the original version   

of Lake House movie that you mentioned

Il Mare is "the sea"

the setting is a seaside house 

the script, the lines

I waited for you a long time

I know two years is a long time

but i still hoped you would come

I guess I expected too much

I know I shouldn't

because it always lead to disappointment

but everyone i care about is so far away

what happened to you those in two years

i hope it was just a slip of memory

Why didn't I show up

I wont forget a promise like that

This is breathtaking

.................. dienn.

The sign

The sign is spectacles

it is not the norm in web community
it's my way of saying "oh, I see"

The blog was created for one reason
a dedication to a dear friend i know
an interactive version of call and chat
to sooth mind and soul
to share little things that makes life

I have never retracted that solemn promise
to share and communicate, the way I see
a platform created years ago, a diary of sort
It's alright, come and see, a post a day

The letter box will stay as I breath my own soul
a concern for a dear friend, years I have known
Never mind the different routes we take
Where ever , journey will always be full of rocks and stones

I have never considered visiting and commenting
as disturbing privacy, 
For it had remained public, going without stopping
as statement of soul

Defining my life, as being complete
my dear, it could be premature
for journey is very long and far
not just family and business
my utmost concern by far is them
the needy souls, our company depending on
which explains the concept of expecting and accepting
and now I will add another, needing.
appreciating all, that had been contributing.
and as I get older, dosa pahala really get into picture

It's never easy to hold the pillar
as economy boils in ongoing turmoil
we only have people, creative and responsive
to the ever changing landscape of business.
It is hard to maintain success
but we strive and pray to god.

I too will pray for you and your family
to be strong, happy and successful
to hold and hug eliss, the sweetie
to accept all, your dearest hubby
and don't forget see things in all shades
as we see the colours of beautiful rainbow

do come, do visit
meeting a friend
over thoughts
life and soul.
as much as I
been dropping in
to see how's mummy doing.







........................... dienn.

Ummi ngajar ngaji

Aku sendiri lupa

sejak bila lienn belajar

sebut alif ba ta dan mengeja

tapi hari ini, Lienn dah baca juz pertama.

Ngaji, acara wajib  anak-anak dan ummi 

tiap-tiap lepas maghrib,  hari hari....

sebelum Lienn mula duduk belum berdiri

dan reti sebut dan baca macam anak kecil..

Tapi kini,

Lienn dah lancar,

dia sendiri call opah

bagitau "lienn dah baca Quran.."

rienn pula dah selesa sebut alif ba ta.....
 pelat cara dia, macam eliss juga...

aku jangka lienn akan khatam
dalam tempuh tidak lama, sekejap.
kerana dia bukan baca merangkak
dia baca dengan selesa, kenal huruf , baris dan rangkap.

..............................................dienn

ummi the mother

describing ummi as thin and tall

is a little bit simplistic
and saying ummi, not active in sport
definitely put ummi as being fragile.

she has kelantan roots
with arabic blood along the line
but she never mastered the accent
for being  born in KL.
where she grew up thereafter.......
and in fact I can speak kelantanese better.
ehemm....

she is KN as you know
she is ummi as the two hug for comfort
she is a lady, very soft spoken
she is delicate, cepat terasa.

Over the years we been together
We learn to understand each other
There were times she had to endure my presence
There were times I had to appreciate her presence.

Getting into wedlock, so arranged
Life was extremely cautious
for everyone's sake so to speak
until Lienn came into picture......

the day KN became a mother.....
and slowly the constraints fade away...
but my mind still get itself locked
with dreams of yesterday
on what could have been....

I look at them, the three
they are depending on me
expecting husband and daddy
as what should forever be







dienn..............................
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